Yes, I had Chipotle last night. And popcorn with my movie (Argo...not bad). Started my fast @ 11pm and fasted until after 7:00pm tonight, so about 18 hours. I do feel much better and am mentally back on track. I need to ask myself each time I'm tempted to go off track, will this take me closer to or further from my goal? I work too hard to go the opposite direction. That being said, an occasional "treat" is different than an all-out binge. I do think you should treat yourself, but that key word: occasional.
I'm an all-or-nothing kinda gal, so for me it's easier to avoid it all together. Intermittent Fasting helps me balance. I still need less "all" and more "nothing" to stay on track. Others may do better will "a little something" every day. I can't do that.
So yes, my first bite was my dinner at 7pm. Chicken breast, steamed veggies, and French loaf w/butter. Had a (pre-planned)snack tonight of Oikos vanilla greek yogurt w/berries and slivered almonds. If I am going to eat a post-dinner snack, it should contain a decent amount of protein. And it is sweet so I'm completely satisfied, and because of my long fast, am well under my caloric goal for today. I didn't work out either because I'm trying to get over this wretched cold.
I'm also keeping in mind this week that I am throwing a party Saturday night and there will be lots of food and drinks...and cake. I'm really hoping to not all-out engorge myself, but I do plan on having a great time and do not want to be obsessing over food the whole time. And I teach Combat the next morning, so I don't wanna feel like total shit when I teach.
Anywho, off to bed (even though I napped untl 2pm!). Nighty-night!
Monday, April 29, 2013
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Oh Thursdays... look what you started!
Cookies (lots of cookies)
Twizzlers
Chips & dip
more cookies
Teddy Grahams.... dipped in chocolate icing
Wine (bottle at a time)
Pulled pork sandwich
Philly cheesesteak sandwich
fried pickles w/ranch
cupcake
two cake truffles
Carrot cake
more cookies
more chips and dip
more wine. and smirnoffs.
more carrot cake
reese's puffs (duh)
That's some of what I consider the "bad stuff" that I ate just from Thursday night thru now (Sunday evening). And I'm pretty sure we're eating Chipotle for dinner. And there's a slice of carrot cake left...
Let's go back...
I love Thursdays. But they take a toll on my "diet". Thursdays are 'girls night' at my house...it started as me and my girlfiends gathering at my house to watch Grey's Anatomy and drinking wine. So "Grey's night" turned into "wine night", and soon everyone was bringing food, some healthy, some REALLY not healthy. And any more we don't even end up watching tv, we just end up sitting around my bar, stuffing our faces and drinking wine (which for me is one glass of wine...one giant glass that holds an entire bottle that is...her name is "Sweetie" as I only drink "Sweet Red" wine). But I FREAKING LOVE OUR THURSDAYS! Love my friends, they are wonderful, and it's just such a great time. My problem is not our "wine nights", it's my addiction to food and my lack of self control, and my habit of over-indulgence. Thursdays is just what starts my downwards spiral that normally continues throughout the rest of the weekend. Friday night after Combat we almost always go out to eat (usually Pizza King or something not healthy). Saturday & Sunday nights it could be eating out again, of course dessert, possibly more drinking. So if Thursday thru Sunday are "bad" days, that's more than half the week. "Bad" as in I way more than exceeded my caloric goals for the day and ate some really really bad stuff. So every Monday I'm back up to my well-over-150 weight, and go back to my "being good" eating and the weight comes off and I go back to my 148 lbs that I was so excited to achieve finally, but now I am back in my never-ending cycle.
I am ready for it to end.
It's not like I can play ignorant and pretend that "I just don't know why I can't lose more weight...I work out all the time and I eat healthy for the most part". (You know those people.) Bullshit. I do know why. I allow it. I make the decision for every piece of crap that goes into my mouth. I know what works for me and what doesn't. I know how much I beat myself up after I binge (eat or drink). I know I am constantly telling myself (and others) that I am going to "get back on track" and "get serious". And I do. Monday to Wednesday. LOL
I need to be able to make better decisions even when the "bad" food is there. I need to not look for excuses to eat junk. I need to stop suggesting dessert after dinner. We need to stop eating out because we're too lazy to cook.
When will my NEED outweigh my WANT? Will it take me outgrowing my pants again? F no. I'm really sick and freakin tired of it. I know we're going to be having lots of get-togethers at our house this summer. I've gotta learn to handle this. I can't NOT have our friends over because I have food issues.
Rediculous. Over it. Time for change.
Twizzlers
Chips & dip
more cookies
Teddy Grahams.... dipped in chocolate icing
Wine (bottle at a time)
Pulled pork sandwich
Philly cheesesteak sandwich
fried pickles w/ranch
cupcake
two cake truffles
Carrot cake
more cookies
more chips and dip
more wine. and smirnoffs.
more carrot cake
reese's puffs (duh)
That's some of what I consider the "bad stuff" that I ate just from Thursday night thru now (Sunday evening). And I'm pretty sure we're eating Chipotle for dinner. And there's a slice of carrot cake left...
Let's go back...
I love Thursdays. But they take a toll on my "diet". Thursdays are 'girls night' at my house...it started as me and my girlfiends gathering at my house to watch Grey's Anatomy and drinking wine. So "Grey's night" turned into "wine night", and soon everyone was bringing food, some healthy, some REALLY not healthy. And any more we don't even end up watching tv, we just end up sitting around my bar, stuffing our faces and drinking wine (which for me is one glass of wine...one giant glass that holds an entire bottle that is...her name is "Sweetie" as I only drink "Sweet Red" wine). But I FREAKING LOVE OUR THURSDAYS! Love my friends, they are wonderful, and it's just such a great time. My problem is not our "wine nights", it's my addiction to food and my lack of self control, and my habit of over-indulgence. Thursdays is just what starts my downwards spiral that normally continues throughout the rest of the weekend. Friday night after Combat we almost always go out to eat (usually Pizza King or something not healthy). Saturday & Sunday nights it could be eating out again, of course dessert, possibly more drinking. So if Thursday thru Sunday are "bad" days, that's more than half the week. "Bad" as in I way more than exceeded my caloric goals for the day and ate some really really bad stuff. So every Monday I'm back up to my well-over-150 weight, and go back to my "being good" eating and the weight comes off and I go back to my 148 lbs that I was so excited to achieve finally, but now I am back in my never-ending cycle.
I am ready for it to end.
It's not like I can play ignorant and pretend that "I just don't know why I can't lose more weight...I work out all the time and I eat healthy for the most part". (You know those people.) Bullshit. I do know why. I allow it. I make the decision for every piece of crap that goes into my mouth. I know what works for me and what doesn't. I know how much I beat myself up after I binge (eat or drink). I know I am constantly telling myself (and others) that I am going to "get back on track" and "get serious". And I do. Monday to Wednesday. LOL
I need to be able to make better decisions even when the "bad" food is there. I need to not look for excuses to eat junk. I need to stop suggesting dessert after dinner. We need to stop eating out because we're too lazy to cook.
When will my NEED outweigh my WANT? Will it take me outgrowing my pants again? F no. I'm really sick and freakin tired of it. I know we're going to be having lots of get-togethers at our house this summer. I've gotta learn to handle this. I can't NOT have our friends over because I have food issues.
Rediculous. Over it. Time for change.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
So it's working so far...
As SOON as I got done posting last night, Steve and the kiddos went to the gas station to get ice cream for dessert (or as we call it Bezzerk). And when asked if I wanted anything, I replied "NO!!" And it was not a "No thank you", I think I may have actually yelled it. LOL I am almost sure that had I not just blogged, that I would have ended up somehow justified eating a cookie ice cream sandwich! But I didn't....AND I didn't even eat my Reese's Puffs! I started my fast at 8pm and got a full 16-hour fast in!
I was actually feeling so good this morning that I had Steve do my body-fat percentage (7-point skin fold w/calipers). It had been six months since I last did it, but from October 2012 until now, my weight had gone from 158 to 148, and my body fat from 20.10 to 18.41!! That was my highest weight of my (non-pregnant) life actually. And I think I was just in a rut. Wasn't weighing in regularly. I was outgrowing all of my pants.... I started doing intermittent fasting in early December, which helped thru the holidays for sure. It helps me balance things out since I like to eat a lot at the time. It allows me to create a deficit on normal days, while still eating ENOUGH calories (yes, not eating enough will decrease your metabolism, because you are losing muscle too, and will cause you to gain weight in the end....although that's never been an issue for me because I never DON'T eat enough!). And it gives me a little wiggle room with my junk food, although it does not give me the go ahead to just eat whatever I want when I'm not fasting. Trust me. Anyways, I'm getting closer to where I wanted to be, although my "goal" is still a ways a way, but I'll have to get super serious if I am really going to get there. I'll go more into my goals sometime in the future... I do think I'm going to start checking my body fat onc a month now tho. Give myself a goal date every month. Accountability y'all!
Anywho, I have to get my Panera fix about once a week, so while I was out 80's shopping (yes again, finally done!) I made it to 1pm and finally broke my fast with a delicious Steak & Blue Cheese Chopped Salad. Y.U.M. I did have the whole grain baguette w/butter so it was a hearty lunch, but as I said, I like to eat a lot. That's why I was willing to sacrifice food for 16-24 hours at a time. And that wasn't easy either. Because if FREAKIN LOVE BREAKFAST! So now I have breakfast for dinner a lot, or omelette for lunch. Balance.
Oh!! But knowing I'd be blogging later DID keep me from eating a 440-calorie cookie from Panera though!!!
I did have a Peppermint Pattie also, after I left the party store. I'll allow myself that one occasionally, although what I really want all the time is my favorite: Nutragious!!!! Had a pre-workout Clif bar (white chocolate macadamia) before BodyCombat and CXWorx. For dinner we had beef pot roast (yes, the microwave kind by Hormel, which is delicious btw). Steamed some red potatos, onions & carrots in a steamer bag. And French loaf bread w/cinnamon sugar butter (Land O'Lakes makes it!). And as I started typing I was finishing off a bowl of Reese's Puffs. Duh.
Not the best day ever, but my decisions were conscious and I knew that I would be having my Panera today. My biggest regret is actually the bread. I do plan on doing another gluten-free week. That's what pushed me past my 150-lb plateau. At very least I'll give up white flour and added sugar for a week. Maybe next week. We'll see.
Good night!
I was actually feeling so good this morning that I had Steve do my body-fat percentage (7-point skin fold w/calipers). It had been six months since I last did it, but from October 2012 until now, my weight had gone from 158 to 148, and my body fat from 20.10 to 18.41!! That was my highest weight of my (non-pregnant) life actually. And I think I was just in a rut. Wasn't weighing in regularly. I was outgrowing all of my pants.... I started doing intermittent fasting in early December, which helped thru the holidays for sure. It helps me balance things out since I like to eat a lot at the time. It allows me to create a deficit on normal days, while still eating ENOUGH calories (yes, not eating enough will decrease your metabolism, because you are losing muscle too, and will cause you to gain weight in the end....although that's never been an issue for me because I never DON'T eat enough!). And it gives me a little wiggle room with my junk food, although it does not give me the go ahead to just eat whatever I want when I'm not fasting. Trust me. Anyways, I'm getting closer to where I wanted to be, although my "goal" is still a ways a way, but I'll have to get super serious if I am really going to get there. I'll go more into my goals sometime in the future... I do think I'm going to start checking my body fat onc a month now tho. Give myself a goal date every month. Accountability y'all!
Anywho, I have to get my Panera fix about once a week, so while I was out 80's shopping (yes again, finally done!) I made it to 1pm and finally broke my fast with a delicious Steak & Blue Cheese Chopped Salad. Y.U.M. I did have the whole grain baguette w/butter so it was a hearty lunch, but as I said, I like to eat a lot. That's why I was willing to sacrifice food for 16-24 hours at a time. And that wasn't easy either. Because if FREAKIN LOVE BREAKFAST! So now I have breakfast for dinner a lot, or omelette for lunch. Balance.
Oh!! But knowing I'd be blogging later DID keep me from eating a 440-calorie cookie from Panera though!!!
I did have a Peppermint Pattie also, after I left the party store. I'll allow myself that one occasionally, although what I really want all the time is my favorite: Nutragious!!!! Had a pre-workout Clif bar (white chocolate macadamia) before BodyCombat and CXWorx. For dinner we had beef pot roast (yes, the microwave kind by Hormel, which is delicious btw). Steamed some red potatos, onions & carrots in a steamer bag. And French loaf bread w/cinnamon sugar butter (Land O'Lakes makes it!). And as I started typing I was finishing off a bowl of Reese's Puffs. Duh.
Not the best day ever, but my decisions were conscious and I knew that I would be having my Panera today. My biggest regret is actually the bread. I do plan on doing another gluten-free week. That's what pushed me past my 150-lb plateau. At very least I'll give up white flour and added sugar for a week. Maybe next week. We'll see.
Good night!
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Here goes.....
I don't even know if anyone will (ever) read this, but here goes. I'll fill in the details (about myself, my history, my goals...) sometime soon for anyone who doesn't know my, but for now, I'm using this blog as my accountability to myself...and whoever else eventually reads it. Accountability for my food, fasts (intermittent fasting...Google it), and workouts.
I'll start with yesterday. I normally do @ 16-hour fasts, but I taught BodyAttack at 7:30am so I had to eat a pre-workout meal (whole grain English muffing w/natural peanut butter & honey and whey protein). When I got home, Steve was about to leave to go teach BodyPump at 9:30am so I'm like "Eh, let me go change shirts and I'll go with ya." Ate a banana before we left I think. When we got home I had some Greek yogurt w/berries @ 11am. Steve and I had to go 80's-attire shopping for launch(yay!)and ended up going to this new burger joint called Teddy's Burgers...neat place but the food was not great, compared to the price especially. And they were out of pickles. And onion rings. Really? Anyways, we had chips and queso, and I had a grilled tenderloin sandwich on wheat and a side salad with honey mustard. Not horrible, but then I got dessert. Chocolate chip cookie sundae. It looked a lot bigger than it actually was because of all the whipped cream, and I didn't eat all the ice cream either, but still the cookie alone was probably 400+ calories. So I pretty much felt like poo after allowing myself to eat that. I find excuses for dessert all the time. My downfall. So, I ended up going to BodyStep at 5:30pm because I figured I probably better after the cookie sundae, and it was good, but omg was I pooped by the end of the night. Steve grilled pork chops and corn & steamed veggies. So my supper only ended up being probably @ 400 calories (maybe less), so that was good. But (always a but) I still had a bowl of Reese's Puffs at 9pm (DAMN that cereal for being so good!) But I started my fast and went until after Noon today, so that's 15 hours. Back on track.
Today....fasted until sometime after noon. For lunch had roast beef & Colby/pepperjack cheese on a low carb tortilla with honey mustard and some natural tortilla chips & sweet onion salsa, and a pear. Guess what tho...shortly after, I had some more Reese puffs. I figure at least they aren't made with flour and they aren't horrible in calories, so if it's the only "sweet" I have in a day, I won't beat myself up over it (like the cookie sundae yesterday!). Had a banana & whey protein for pre-workout snack before teaching 5:30pm BodyPump, and stayed for the first 4 tracks of BodyAttack. My quads and ankle weren't allowing me to stay longer! For dinner I had my fave quick salmon (Trident Thai Chili microwave salmon) with brown & wild rice. It's 8:15pm now so I'm about to start my fast until 1pm tomorrow, and I'm only at about 1300 calories or so for the day so I'm still contemplating more Reese's Puffs. I'm going with no for now. I'll let you know tomorrow!
I'll start with yesterday. I normally do @ 16-hour fasts, but I taught BodyAttack at 7:30am so I had to eat a pre-workout meal (whole grain English muffing w/natural peanut butter & honey and whey protein). When I got home, Steve was about to leave to go teach BodyPump at 9:30am so I'm like "Eh, let me go change shirts and I'll go with ya." Ate a banana before we left I think. When we got home I had some Greek yogurt w/berries @ 11am. Steve and I had to go 80's-attire shopping for launch(yay!)and ended up going to this new burger joint called Teddy's Burgers...neat place but the food was not great, compared to the price especially. And they were out of pickles. And onion rings. Really? Anyways, we had chips and queso, and I had a grilled tenderloin sandwich on wheat and a side salad with honey mustard. Not horrible, but then I got dessert. Chocolate chip cookie sundae. It looked a lot bigger than it actually was because of all the whipped cream, and I didn't eat all the ice cream either, but still the cookie alone was probably 400+ calories. So I pretty much felt like poo after allowing myself to eat that. I find excuses for dessert all the time. My downfall. So, I ended up going to BodyStep at 5:30pm because I figured I probably better after the cookie sundae, and it was good, but omg was I pooped by the end of the night. Steve grilled pork chops and corn & steamed veggies. So my supper only ended up being probably @ 400 calories (maybe less), so that was good. But (always a but) I still had a bowl of Reese's Puffs at 9pm (DAMN that cereal for being so good!) But I started my fast and went until after Noon today, so that's 15 hours. Back on track.
Today....fasted until sometime after noon. For lunch had roast beef & Colby/pepperjack cheese on a low carb tortilla with honey mustard and some natural tortilla chips & sweet onion salsa, and a pear. Guess what tho...shortly after, I had some more Reese puffs. I figure at least they aren't made with flour and they aren't horrible in calories, so if it's the only "sweet" I have in a day, I won't beat myself up over it (like the cookie sundae yesterday!). Had a banana & whey protein for pre-workout snack before teaching 5:30pm BodyPump, and stayed for the first 4 tracks of BodyAttack. My quads and ankle weren't allowing me to stay longer! For dinner I had my fave quick salmon (Trident Thai Chili microwave salmon) with brown & wild rice. It's 8:15pm now so I'm about to start my fast until 1pm tomorrow, and I'm only at about 1300 calories or so for the day so I'm still contemplating more Reese's Puffs. I'm going with no for now. I'll let you know tomorrow!
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