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Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Friday, July 19, 2013
Pretty darn proud of myself
My food log was getting kinda long so I figured I better post again! (My apologies for the 'underline'...I can't get rid of it).
So, I'm looking over my food that I've eaten over the last five days, and I'm noticing that I really am eating mostly REAL, non-processed food, I haven't overeaten or splurged, although I have treated myself a few times, but felt good about it afterwards, so it's all good. Very little bread/pasta, and was able to avoid sweets that before there is no way I would have passed up. Some days I eat a lot, but I'm eating when I NEED to eat, when I'm hungry, and really not eating when I'm not hungry. Some of the days look like I'm eating a TON, but the 3rd shift 2 days at a time really makes my eating "pattern" not really look like a pattern at all. But I feel good, and I'm still making progress. I'm actually looking forward to my check-in on the first even! Maybe all the nice weather and being in a bikini so often helps keep me motivated. Either way, I'm proud of myself!
I even avoided eating a Cinnabon cinnamon roll that sat on my stove for two days, in plain sight. 5 rolls in a can, and 5 people in our family ... guess who did NOT eat one...this girl!!!
Anywho....HAPPY FRIDAY!
Sunday
7:30am - 3 eggs, black beans, sausage, tomatoes, Franks Red Hot; Ezekial toast w/jam <---- New fave!
*BodyAttack / Abs*
11:30pm - Kind bar
Monday
2am - Shakeology/Protein
Black Coffee
3:30am - Steak & veggies (I was STARVING! Finally a meal... 1st "real food" in almost 20 hours! This wasn't even by choice, we were slammed at work...ugh)
7:30am - 3 eggs, black beans, sausage, tomatoes, Franks Red Hot, 1 slice Ezekial toast w/jam
(sleep)
1:30pm - Steak/peppers/onion kebob + spinach salad w/dried cranberries, blue cheese, sunflower seeds, bell peppers, balsamic vinegar/mustard dressing <--- yum!
4:30pm PWO - Kind bar, banana
*6:30pm BodyPump*
9pm - Jason's Deli: Salad bar=spinach & spring mix, 2 hard boiled eggs, bell peppers, onions, bean mix, almonds, low fat french dressing; 2 sm corn muffins, sm cup ice cream w/dark chocolate syrup & almonds
**Long Fast - 9pm - 7pm = 21 hours**
Tuesday
*Lift - Total body circuit (mostly 2x8-10) + Abs*
**Family night!**
7pm - Manicotti, garlic bread, ceasar salad + homemade banana bread (yummy!!!)
Wednesday
8am PWO - Plain oatmeal w/blueberries, banana, walnuts, cinnamon, Stevia
*9:30am BodyAttack*
Isopure Protein 2 scoops
12pm - 2 egg omelete with roast beef & cheese
Pita chips & hummus
(sleep)
6pm - Banana bread & milk
11:30pm - Salmon & veggies (sweet potato, bell peppers, onions, black beans)
Thursday
2am - Greek yogurt/berries/almonds
4am - Pear
6am - Shakeology/Protein
(sleep)
12:30pm - 3 eggs, black beans, sausage, salsa, hot sauce, oj
*Lift - Deadlift/Chest Press/Row*
(sleep)
6pm - Pita Chips/Hummus
Trail mix
Peppers/Hummus
1am - Salad (walnuts, cranberries, blue cheese, chicken, ranch) + pear
Friday
5am - apple/pb
So, I'm looking over my food that I've eaten over the last five days, and I'm noticing that I really am eating mostly REAL, non-processed food, I haven't overeaten or splurged, although I have treated myself a few times, but felt good about it afterwards, so it's all good. Very little bread/pasta, and was able to avoid sweets that before there is no way I would have passed up. Some days I eat a lot, but I'm eating when I NEED to eat, when I'm hungry, and really not eating when I'm not hungry. Some of the days look like I'm eating a TON, but the 3rd shift 2 days at a time really makes my eating "pattern" not really look like a pattern at all. But I feel good, and I'm still making progress. I'm actually looking forward to my check-in on the first even! Maybe all the nice weather and being in a bikini so often helps keep me motivated. Either way, I'm proud of myself!
I even avoided eating a Cinnabon cinnamon roll that sat on my stove for two days, in plain sight. 5 rolls in a can, and 5 people in our family ... guess who did NOT eat one...this girl!!!
Anywho....HAPPY FRIDAY!
Sunday
7:30am - 3 eggs, black beans, sausage, tomatoes, Franks Red Hot; Ezekial toast w/jam <---- New fave!
*BodyAttack / Abs*
11:30pm - Kind bar
Monday
2am - Shakeology/Protein
Black Coffee
3:30am - Steak & veggies (I was STARVING! Finally a meal... 1st "real food" in almost 20 hours! This wasn't even by choice, we were slammed at work...ugh)
7:30am - 3 eggs, black beans, sausage, tomatoes, Franks Red Hot, 1 slice Ezekial toast w/jam
(sleep)
1:30pm - Steak/peppers/onion kebob + spinach salad w/dried cranberries, blue cheese, sunflower seeds, bell peppers, balsamic vinegar/mustard dressing <--- yum!
4:30pm PWO - Kind bar, banana
*6:30pm BodyPump*
9pm - Jason's Deli: Salad bar=spinach & spring mix, 2 hard boiled eggs, bell peppers, onions, bean mix, almonds, low fat french dressing; 2 sm corn muffins, sm cup ice cream w/dark chocolate syrup & almonds
**Long Fast - 9pm - 7pm = 21 hours**
Tuesday
*Lift - Total body circuit (mostly 2x8-10) + Abs*
**Family night!**
7pm - Manicotti, garlic bread, ceasar salad + homemade banana bread (yummy!!!)
Wednesday
8am PWO - Plain oatmeal w/blueberries, banana, walnuts, cinnamon, Stevia
*9:30am BodyAttack*
Isopure Protein 2 scoops
12pm - 2 egg omelete with roast beef & cheese
Pita chips & hummus
(sleep)
6pm - Banana bread & milk
11:30pm - Salmon & veggies (sweet potato, bell peppers, onions, black beans)
Thursday
2am - Greek yogurt/berries/almonds
4am - Pear
6am - Shakeology/Protein
(sleep)
12:30pm - 3 eggs, black beans, sausage, salsa, hot sauce, oj
*Lift - Deadlift/Chest Press/Row*
(sleep)
6pm - Pita Chips/Hummus
Trail mix
Peppers/Hummus
1am - Salad (walnuts, cranberries, blue cheese, chicken, ranch) + pear
Friday
5am - apple/pb
Saturday, July 13, 2013
My current diet & workouts, & stats
First, I'll get the food out of the way:
Wednesday
6am - Shakeology, 1 scoop Isopure protein
(sleep)
*Got my iron infusion, with Bendaryl, after 3 hours of sleep. Soooo tired! And hungry!
4pm - Panera Steak & Blue Cheese chopped salad, whole grain baguette (I soooo needed the carbs!)
(back to sleep before work 7p-1a)
(fast until 1am)
For the life of me I can't remember what I ate when I got off work at 1am, but I know I ate something, and it wasn't bad. I think maybe my trail mix (unsalted nuts:cashews, almonds, macadamia, pistachios; organic banana chips, dried cranberries) and another shakeology/protein.
Thursday
Fasted until Noon
Lunch w/friend at Jason's Deli - salad bar: Spring mix & spinach, 2 hard-boiled eggs, bell peppers, bean mix, sunflower seeds, light honey mustard; a little pasta salad & a couple little pieces of the toasted bread (not sure what kind it is, their like big croutons); and a small cup of ice cream w/syrup.
PWO - Trail mix, 1 scoop Muscle Milk protein
*BodyCombat & BodyPump* (totally wiped out!!)
8pm - 1 steak burrito w/veggies, sour cream, cheese salsa
GIRLS NIGHT! Sweet red wine (almost a bottle), couple glasses of Skinny Girl Pina Colada, Tracy's yummy strawberry dessert (vanilla pudding, angel food cake, cool whip) ... I'm sure I nibbled on some other foods, but I don't remember.
Friday
Fasted until 1:30pm
O'Charley's w/ my friend Wendy and her kids, and the fam. Can you believe I DIDN'T EAT ANY ROLLS!!!! This is a huge accomplishment for me! Being that I already had a "cheat night" last night, plus we were going for fro-yo afterwards! ... and also knowing I was drinking/grilling again later tonight, I knew I needed to avoid the bread. Very proud moment for me still! I had a couple of the chips/queso, which I could've done without, but needed to eat some so I could handle the crunching (damn misophonia...I hate it!). I ordered a cup of soup and only ate about half of it and gave the rest to Steve. And ordered the half-size steak ceasar salad, which surprisingly small (maybe because I never order a half size!) but just right, and super delicious! We all went to YoJoy for frozen yogurt and for the third time in a row I did NOT get cookie dough, brownies, oreos, syrup, etc that I used to. Small(er) amount of yogurt with only berries (and two little cheesecake bites). Baby steps.
*Heavy Lifting - 210lb squats, 85lb overhead presses, 16 Chinups*
More friends over that night to grill and swim and drink... Steak & veggies, salad... was doing pretty good....then the ice cream Twix came out, along w/a half bottle of Vodka. The Twix was worth it. Way too much vodka tho... someone needs to not allow me to mix my own drinks. I have no idea what I'm doing!
Saturday
8am PWO - Ezekial toast w/PB, agave, cinnamon + 1 scoop Muscle Milk
*9:30am BodyPump & BodyCombat* (even after all the vodka!)
1pm - Grilled Chicken kebob (w/peppers & onions), veggies (cucumbers, squash, zuchini, peppers, onions in Zesty Italian dressing)
(sleep before work)
6pm - Shakeology
8:30pm - Donatos veggie pizza (3 small pieces) & side salad w/light ranch
11:30pm - Vanilla greek yogurt, berries, almonds
*******************************************
I kinda feel like people are going to read this and think "Damn! She still eats a lot!" And "Really?! She thinks this is eating healthy?" Maybe I'm still being hard on myself, I don't know. Yes, I do eat a lot. That's why I enjoy fasting. I like to eat. (That sounds ass-backwards, doesn't it?! lol). Anyways, compared to my past eating habits, this is huge, considering what I used to allow myself on what always ended up to be a "cheat-three-or-four-day weekend"! I would start on girls-night Thursday and continue eating crap all thru the weekend. So yeah, the fact that I'm not bingeing on junk just whenever the urge strikes me, avoiding bread & pasta the majority of the time, but still allowing myself to enjoy life, and still make steps towards my goals ... yes, that makes me happy.
I also quit weighing myself. Very seldomly I'll get on the scale to check in, but really I'm going based more on how I look and how my clothes fit. I am checking my bodyfat percentage on the first of every month. I take progress pics occasionally, which I post on this awesome FB group called Fierce.Fit.Fearless (closed group, but you can ask to join...girls only!), which is a bunch of ladies, mostly who enjoy heavy lifting. Friday's are "Flex Friday" so girls will post bicep, back, butt ... whatever pics. Yesterday I posted bicep and back pics, and just some of the comments I got from the girls were very flattering, and also very motivating to keep up what I'm doing, and really make me want to crack down harder!
So what am I doing? Basically, I'm trying to eat more real, non-processed foods - meat, eggs, fruit, veggies, with very little bread or pasta products, a little dairy but not much. I use Ezekial bread (flourless)for my toast. I am supplementing with protein powder usually once or twicea day, and Shakeology as well (because I got a free bag of it so I'm gonna use it!) I am eating when I am hungry, and having more portion-control and not continuing to eat because "it tastes so good";. If I do get hungry between meals and need a snack, I still am sticking to fruit or veggies, hummus, greek yogurt, or Kind bars.I do eat pre-workout snacks prior to teaching classes, even if I'm not particularly hungry, but I do it for energy, as my classes are more about performance for me than how many calories I'm burning myself (which is a LOT!). I do not, however,always eat before my home heavy lifting or HIIT workouts (only if I feel I need to, or sometimes I will go fasted). I'm logging my food again on myfitnesspal, not religiously tho. And not necessarily to "count calories", but also to get an idea of how much protein I'm consuming (usually 100-150g per day). I seem to be, on a normal day (no indulging, desserts, or long fasts), taking in anywhere from 1,800-2,000. Possibly less if it's a non-class-teaching day.
Workout-wise, I am not currently teaching as much since we're in-between gyms, but I'm still teaching consitently at two other gyms, so I'm getting BodyPump in2-3x a week, BodyCombat 1-2 times a week, and trying to maybe get in a BodyStep or BodyAttack once a week. My heavy lifting I do 3x a week and also try to get in 1-2 HIIT sessions a week also.
Someone asked me on the FFF board what my stats and calorie consumption are, so I figure I'd add a tidbit in about what exactly I am doing right now, in a nutshell, food and workout-wise. Stats btw are: I'm 5'6" tall, and approx 150lbs (haven't weighed in a while but I tend to hover right around there). BodyFat as of July 1 is 19.4%. I don't particularly have a set goal, but I'd like to be somewhere between 17-18% bodyfat if (when) I decide to really crack down.
Even with my recent indulgences (trip to Kentucky, girls night, O'Charley's, several fro-yo trips, grilling/drinking nights), I am still making progress. When I do eat the crap, I can tell a big difference in my body and the way I feel, and each time, it makes me want to keep doing a little better. But I did quit beating myself up after my "cheat days". They are planned now, and I know to expect to be a little bloated afterwards. I drink some extra water and keep moving forward.
That's enough for now. I tend to ramble when I get on here after midnight!
Night all!
Wednesday
6am - Shakeology, 1 scoop Isopure protein
(sleep)
*Got my iron infusion, with Bendaryl, after 3 hours of sleep. Soooo tired! And hungry!
4pm - Panera Steak & Blue Cheese chopped salad, whole grain baguette (I soooo needed the carbs!)
(back to sleep before work 7p-1a)
(fast until 1am)
For the life of me I can't remember what I ate when I got off work at 1am, but I know I ate something, and it wasn't bad. I think maybe my trail mix (unsalted nuts:cashews, almonds, macadamia, pistachios; organic banana chips, dried cranberries) and another shakeology/protein.
Thursday
Fasted until Noon
Lunch w/friend at Jason's Deli - salad bar: Spring mix & spinach, 2 hard-boiled eggs, bell peppers, bean mix, sunflower seeds, light honey mustard; a little pasta salad & a couple little pieces of the toasted bread (not sure what kind it is, their like big croutons); and a small cup of ice cream w/syrup.
PWO - Trail mix, 1 scoop Muscle Milk protein
*BodyCombat & BodyPump* (totally wiped out!!)
8pm - 1 steak burrito w/veggies, sour cream, cheese salsa
GIRLS NIGHT! Sweet red wine (almost a bottle), couple glasses of Skinny Girl Pina Colada, Tracy's yummy strawberry dessert (vanilla pudding, angel food cake, cool whip) ... I'm sure I nibbled on some other foods, but I don't remember.
Friday
Fasted until 1:30pm
O'Charley's w/ my friend Wendy and her kids, and the fam. Can you believe I DIDN'T EAT ANY ROLLS!!!! This is a huge accomplishment for me! Being that I already had a "cheat night" last night, plus we were going for fro-yo afterwards! ... and also knowing I was drinking/grilling again later tonight, I knew I needed to avoid the bread. Very proud moment for me still! I had a couple of the chips/queso, which I could've done without, but needed to eat some so I could handle the crunching (damn misophonia...I hate it!). I ordered a cup of soup and only ate about half of it and gave the rest to Steve. And ordered the half-size steak ceasar salad, which surprisingly small (maybe because I never order a half size!) but just right, and super delicious! We all went to YoJoy for frozen yogurt and for the third time in a row I did NOT get cookie dough, brownies, oreos, syrup, etc that I used to. Small(er) amount of yogurt with only berries (and two little cheesecake bites). Baby steps.
*Heavy Lifting - 210lb squats, 85lb overhead presses, 16 Chinups*
More friends over that night to grill and swim and drink... Steak & veggies, salad... was doing pretty good....then the ice cream Twix came out, along w/a half bottle of Vodka. The Twix was worth it. Way too much vodka tho... someone needs to not allow me to mix my own drinks. I have no idea what I'm doing!
Saturday
8am PWO - Ezekial toast w/PB, agave, cinnamon + 1 scoop Muscle Milk
*9:30am BodyPump & BodyCombat* (even after all the vodka!)
1pm - Grilled Chicken kebob (w/peppers & onions), veggies (cucumbers, squash, zuchini, peppers, onions in Zesty Italian dressing)
(sleep before work)
6pm - Shakeology
8:30pm - Donatos veggie pizza (3 small pieces) & side salad w/light ranch
11:30pm - Vanilla greek yogurt, berries, almonds
*******************************************
I kinda feel like people are going to read this and think "Damn! She still eats a lot!" And "Really?! She thinks this is eating healthy?" Maybe I'm still being hard on myself, I don't know. Yes, I do eat a lot. That's why I enjoy fasting. I like to eat. (That sounds ass-backwards, doesn't it?! lol). Anyways, compared to my past eating habits, this is huge, considering what I used to allow myself on what always ended up to be a "cheat-three-or-four-day weekend"! I would start on girls-night Thursday and continue eating crap all thru the weekend. So yeah, the fact that I'm not bingeing on junk just whenever the urge strikes me, avoiding bread & pasta the majority of the time, but still allowing myself to enjoy life, and still make steps towards my goals ... yes, that makes me happy.
I also quit weighing myself. Very seldomly I'll get on the scale to check in, but really I'm going based more on how I look and how my clothes fit. I am checking my bodyfat percentage on the first of every month. I take progress pics occasionally, which I post on this awesome FB group called Fierce.Fit.Fearless (closed group, but you can ask to join...girls only!), which is a bunch of ladies, mostly who enjoy heavy lifting. Friday's are "Flex Friday" so girls will post bicep, back, butt ... whatever pics. Yesterday I posted bicep and back pics, and just some of the comments I got from the girls were very flattering, and also very motivating to keep up what I'm doing, and really make me want to crack down harder!
So what am I doing? Basically, I'm trying to eat more real, non-processed foods - meat, eggs, fruit, veggies, with very little bread or pasta products, a little dairy but not much. I use Ezekial bread (flourless)for my toast. I am supplementing with protein powder usually once or twicea day, and Shakeology as well (because I got a free bag of it so I'm gonna use it!) I am eating when I am hungry, and having more portion-control and not continuing to eat because "it tastes so good";. If I do get hungry between meals and need a snack, I still am sticking to fruit or veggies, hummus, greek yogurt, or Kind bars.I do eat pre-workout snacks prior to teaching classes, even if I'm not particularly hungry, but I do it for energy, as my classes are more about performance for me than how many calories I'm burning myself (which is a LOT!). I do not, however,always eat before my home heavy lifting or HIIT workouts (only if I feel I need to, or sometimes I will go fasted). I'm logging my food again on myfitnesspal, not religiously tho. And not necessarily to "count calories", but also to get an idea of how much protein I'm consuming (usually 100-150g per day). I seem to be, on a normal day (no indulging, desserts, or long fasts), taking in anywhere from 1,800-2,000. Possibly less if it's a non-class-teaching day.
Workout-wise, I am not currently teaching as much since we're in-between gyms, but I'm still teaching consitently at two other gyms, so I'm getting BodyPump in2-3x a week, BodyCombat 1-2 times a week, and trying to maybe get in a BodyStep or BodyAttack once a week. My heavy lifting I do 3x a week and also try to get in 1-2 HIIT sessions a week also.
Someone asked me on the FFF board what my stats and calorie consumption are, so I figure I'd add a tidbit in about what exactly I am doing right now, in a nutshell, food and workout-wise. Stats btw are: I'm 5'6" tall, and approx 150lbs (haven't weighed in a while but I tend to hover right around there). BodyFat as of July 1 is 19.4%. I don't particularly have a set goal, but I'd like to be somewhere between 17-18% bodyfat if (when) I decide to really crack down.
Even with my recent indulgences (trip to Kentucky, girls night, O'Charley's, several fro-yo trips, grilling/drinking nights), I am still making progress. When I do eat the crap, I can tell a big difference in my body and the way I feel, and each time, it makes me want to keep doing a little better. But I did quit beating myself up after my "cheat days". They are planned now, and I know to expect to be a little bloated afterwards. I drink some extra water and keep moving forward.
That's enough for now. I tend to ramble when I get on here after midnight!
Night all!
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Post-mini vacation reboot
For whatever reason, I didn't log any food after my last blog. With all the crap I ate during my trip to Kentucky (cookies, candy bars, M&M's ... oh yeah, major sugar binging), I'm not going to bother trying to remember it all. So we'll ignore the Hardees I had for breakfast the morning we left Jackson, and just start from when we got home!
First though, just have to say it was wonderful to finally see Kaleb after almost 3 weeks! He had a great time, but is glad to be home. ESPECIALLY glad to finally get home to Conan! They became instant-buddies. It's so cute!
Ok, here's the food.
Monday/Tuesday
2pm Shakeology + 1 scoop Isopure protein powder
*HIIT (Tabata Set 1: 40-lb kettlebell swings + Sumo-deadlift high pull; Set 2: cross-fit style burpees + mountain climbers)/Lift (12-15 rep)/Abs*
Carrots, hummus
6pm - Chicken voila (< 1 serving)
1am - Trail mix (unsalted nuts, banana chips, dried cranberries), 2 scoops muscle milk
Grapes, Kind bar
6:30am Shakeology + 1 scoop Isopure protein powder
(Sleep)
2pm - 3 eggs, sausage, peppers, tomatoes, onions. Oj. *Walk/Heavy lift (175lb deadlift, 110lb bench press, 110lb BB rows)/Abs*
6:30 - Quest, EAS lean protein powder
Cinnamon wheel (Steve was nice enough to bring me dessert to work, but I shared half of it with Lena!)
11pm - Chicken strips, fries (Lena was nice enough to share her meal with me too! Not the healthiest, but was only half a meal.)
Wednesday
2:30a Vanilla Greek yogurt + cinnamon, walnuts, Apple (yum!)
First though, just have to say it was wonderful to finally see Kaleb after almost 3 weeks! He had a great time, but is glad to be home. ESPECIALLY glad to finally get home to Conan! They became instant-buddies. It's so cute!
Ok, here's the food.
Monday/Tuesday
2pm Shakeology + 1 scoop Isopure protein powder
*HIIT (Tabata Set 1: 40-lb kettlebell swings + Sumo-deadlift high pull; Set 2: cross-fit style burpees + mountain climbers)/Lift (12-15 rep)/Abs*
Carrots, hummus
6pm - Chicken voila (< 1 serving)
1am - Trail mix (unsalted nuts, banana chips, dried cranberries), 2 scoops muscle milk
Grapes, Kind bar
6:30am Shakeology + 1 scoop Isopure protein powder
(Sleep)
2pm - 3 eggs, sausage, peppers, tomatoes, onions. Oj. *Walk/Heavy lift (175lb deadlift, 110lb bench press, 110lb BB rows)/Abs*
6:30 - Quest, EAS lean protein powder
Cinnamon wheel (Steve was nice enough to bring me dessert to work, but I shared half of it with Lena!)
11pm - Chicken strips, fries (Lena was nice enough to share her meal with me too! Not the healthiest, but was only half a meal.)
Wednesday
2:30a Vanilla Greek yogurt + cinnamon, walnuts, Apple (yum!)
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Just wanted to share!
I love this Nia Shanks chick. I'm subscribed to her, and the other Beautiful Badass girls' email lists. Check out their websites when you have a chance. So much great info. Here's the latest email I wanted to share...in case anyone is feeling guilty after today's festivities!
Howdy, friend!
Failure. That's the topic for today's email.
"I failed."
How many times have you said this on your journey to build the body you want (stronger, leaner, healthier)? Maybe you missed a workout or ate too much junk food.
"I failed," you tell yourself.
Failure, my friend, isn't a bad thing.
How about instead of looking at these instances as failures you take a different perspective.
We equate failures with the notion that we *should* be perfect. We should do everything correctly, 100% of time. Anything less is failing.
I used to think this way, and it drove me crazy.
I had to eat perfectly all the time and never miss a workout no matter what. Anything less then perfection was a failure.
But then I viewed "failures" differently (this applies not only to maintaining a healthy lifestyle, but business and practically anything else).
Thomas Edison said it best: "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
The next time you proclaim to have "failed", take a step back and look at the entire situation. What can you learn from it? How can you turn this into a positive experience? Do you need to simplify the process? What can you do differently that will lead to a positive outcome?
Failing isn't bad. Failing means at least you're trying! You're doing something. You're taking action.
Failing allows us to grow stronger and be more resilient. Failing ultimately allows us to become more awesome and stronger versions of ourselves.
What we view as failing is simply a learning opportunity.
We'll finish this off with another quote by Epictetus. "It's not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters."
Until next time . . .
Be the Most Awesome and Strongest Version of YOU,
Nia
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Wednesday, July 3, 2013
New addition to our family! Food. And New Beginnings.
First, I gotta show off this awesome dog of ours! And if you thought by that title that I'm pregnant, you obviously don't know me! ;)
In only two days, we have already fallen in love with this amazingly sweet and wonderful beast of a dog (or "Tank" as Steve likes to call him!). He is so funny and just loves us to pieces already too. I can not wait for Kaleb to come home ... he will absolutely LOVE him to death!
Anywho, here's my food over the last few days, with some thoughts on the side. Treated myself a few times, but nothing overboard. Working on trying to get more protein in.
Sunday
1am - Nut, apple, yogurt trail mix
4:30am - Greek yogurt, half banana, blueberries, almonds
7:15 - 3 scrambled eggs, crumbled italian sausage, salsa, OJ
Migraine, no workout today :( I'm really enjoying my heavy lifting sessions. Won't get it in again til Wednesday since I teach Pump the next two days. Could, but not going to do that to myself!
2pm - Protein/berry smoothie
5pm - Panera turkey fuji apple salad
8-9pm? - Quest Bar
11pm Healthy Choice steamer meal (bbq Steak, red potatoes...yummy!)
Monday
2am - Greek yogurt, berries, almonds
5am - Nut, apple, yogurt trail mix (I realized this after I ate it that this is what caused my migraine yesterday! It's back...I think it's the nuts. Which sucks, cuz I love me some NUTS. Always happens tho when I eat to many nuts. <Insert TWSS joke here>)
(Sleep)
Protein juice (Isopure makes this juice that has 40g of protein that tastes decent...diggin it!)
PWO-2 slices Ezekiel toast, pb, agave
*BodyPump*
8:30pm - Sushi w/Sue! Go to Ocean World at 86th & Ditch and try the Mardi Gras roll and Canadian roll... I just can't get enough. Yes I ate it all. Yes it was worth it!
Tuesday
9:30am - Kind bar, Isopure protein juice
12pm - Steak, sweet potato
PWO - Clif bar, ritz crackers (I felt like I needed carbs and they looked good).
*BodyPump*
7:30pm - Donatos veggie pizza (best ever!), cheese bread,
strawberry shortcake (small angel food cake round, strawberries, light cool wHip)
9pm - Isopure Protein shake (50g protein). I figure I needed the extra protein since my dinner was pretty much all carbs. Thought I was done for the night and was going to start my fast, but then we watched Big Brother and had:
11pm - Popcorn, 2 Mich Ultra's
And I also decided for sure to go to BodyAttack the next morning, so I opted not to fast. I'll get back to that after our trip to KY. I don't really have another opportunity until then. I might do a 16-18 hour fast Thur am into Fri am. We'll see.
Wednesday
(PWO) 2 slices Ezekial toast/pb/agave, milk
*BodyAttack*
11am - A few mixed nuts (don't wanna over-do it on the nuts!), cranberries, banana chips
12:30pm - Orange Leaf - Wedding cake frozen yogurt w/raspberries, blueberries, kiwi, cherries, granola (I am actually liking the fruit/berries on my yogurt MORE than the cookie dough, brownies, oreos, syrup, etc I used to get!)
2pm - Carrots & a little hummus
*Lift - 3 sets: 205lb squats!, 80lb overhead press, Chinups*
3pm - Lettuce wrap - iceburg lettuce, sliced turkey & roast beef, honey mustard
(sleep before work)
6:45pm - Protein/berry smoothie (50g), Kind bar
12am - Two Tilapia fillets, sauted veggies w/olive oil
I just feel like I eat SO MUCH DANG FOOD! Aside from the "unnecessary treats" (strawberry shortcake, popcorn & beer, frozen yogurt, etc), I'm eating when I'm hungry, not over-eating, and eating mindfully to fuel my body, as opposed to just eating what sounds good whenever I feel like it. I can get away with doing fasted workouts when I'm working out on my own, HIIT sets or lifting, but I do eat my PWO's prior to teaching classes because it's more of a performance thing than just a fat-burning thing. If, since Gold's is closing their doors, (I'm not ready to talk about this just yet, I'm only mentioning it due to the subject of my food), and I won't be teaching as many classes (only for a SHORT period of time I'm sure, but again, not talking about it yet...), I may be able to get away with eating less daily calories, and possibly even back to more of a LeanGains method of fasting ... we'll see.
Ok, I said I wasn't gonna talk about it, but my mind went there.
Life, and everything in it, is constantly changing. We have to change with it. Although sometimes change is sad at first, it's not always a bad thing. All things happen for a reason, I do believe that. Change forces us to take action. And we prevail, and come out stronger. "What doesn't kill ya...." You know the song. I personally prefer the Metallica version "What don't kill ya make ya more strong", but I don't see Les Mills using that in any tracks. Bummer.
You Les Mills fans reading this may know that our beloved company that produces these amazing workouts, that has become a wonderfully amazing part of our lives, that has led me to meeting my awesome friends, meet the man of my dreams, helped me to quit smoking, and of course, to become The Machine! ;) ... got off track, sorry ... Anyways... Les Mills is based out of New Zealand, also home of the Maori tribe. You've seen a lot of us instructors wearing our necklaces with the different Maori symbols, each with their own meaning...
The necklace I wear is the Maori tribe symbol (the spiral) called the Koru, also in the tattoo on my neck. It means 'New Beginnings'. That means a lot to me, for several reasons.
To my Gold's Les Mills peeps: This is only our New Beginning. Ready to get stronger?!
Kia Kaha!
Anywho, here's my food over the last few days, with some thoughts on the side. Treated myself a few times, but nothing overboard. Working on trying to get more protein in.
Sunday
1am - Nut, apple, yogurt trail mix
4:30am - Greek yogurt, half banana, blueberries, almonds
7:15 - 3 scrambled eggs, crumbled italian sausage, salsa, OJ
Migraine, no workout today :( I'm really enjoying my heavy lifting sessions. Won't get it in again til Wednesday since I teach Pump the next two days. Could, but not going to do that to myself!
2pm - Protein/berry smoothie
5pm - Panera turkey fuji apple salad
8-9pm? - Quest Bar
11pm Healthy Choice steamer meal (bbq Steak, red potatoes...yummy!)
Monday
2am - Greek yogurt, berries, almonds
5am - Nut, apple, yogurt trail mix (I realized this after I ate it that this is what caused my migraine yesterday! It's back...I think it's the nuts. Which sucks, cuz I love me some NUTS. Always happens tho when I eat to many nuts. <Insert TWSS joke here>)
(Sleep)
Protein juice (Isopure makes this juice that has 40g of protein that tastes decent...diggin it!)
PWO-2 slices Ezekiel toast, pb, agave
*BodyPump*
8:30pm - Sushi w/Sue! Go to Ocean World at 86th & Ditch and try the Mardi Gras roll and Canadian roll... I just can't get enough. Yes I ate it all. Yes it was worth it!
Tuesday
9:30am - Kind bar, Isopure protein juice
12pm - Steak, sweet potato
PWO - Clif bar, ritz crackers (I felt like I needed carbs and they looked good).
*BodyPump*
7:30pm - Donatos veggie pizza (best ever!), cheese bread,
strawberry shortcake (small angel food cake round, strawberries, light cool wHip)
9pm - Isopure Protein shake (50g protein). I figure I needed the extra protein since my dinner was pretty much all carbs. Thought I was done for the night and was going to start my fast, but then we watched Big Brother and had:
11pm - Popcorn, 2 Mich Ultra's
And I also decided for sure to go to BodyAttack the next morning, so I opted not to fast. I'll get back to that after our trip to KY. I don't really have another opportunity until then. I might do a 16-18 hour fast Thur am into Fri am. We'll see.
Wednesday
(PWO) 2 slices Ezekial toast/pb/agave, milk
*BodyAttack*
11am - A few mixed nuts (don't wanna over-do it on the nuts!), cranberries, banana chips
12:30pm - Orange Leaf - Wedding cake frozen yogurt w/raspberries, blueberries, kiwi, cherries, granola (I am actually liking the fruit/berries on my yogurt MORE than the cookie dough, brownies, oreos, syrup, etc I used to get!)
2pm - Carrots & a little hummus
*Lift - 3 sets: 205lb squats!, 80lb overhead press, Chinups*
3pm - Lettuce wrap - iceburg lettuce, sliced turkey & roast beef, honey mustard
(sleep before work)
6:45pm - Protein/berry smoothie (50g), Kind bar
12am - Two Tilapia fillets, sauted veggies w/olive oil
I just feel like I eat SO MUCH DANG FOOD! Aside from the "unnecessary treats" (strawberry shortcake, popcorn & beer, frozen yogurt, etc), I'm eating when I'm hungry, not over-eating, and eating mindfully to fuel my body, as opposed to just eating what sounds good whenever I feel like it. I can get away with doing fasted workouts when I'm working out on my own, HIIT sets or lifting, but I do eat my PWO's prior to teaching classes because it's more of a performance thing than just a fat-burning thing. If, since Gold's is closing their doors, (I'm not ready to talk about this just yet, I'm only mentioning it due to the subject of my food), and I won't be teaching as many classes (only for a SHORT period of time I'm sure, but again, not talking about it yet...), I may be able to get away with eating less daily calories, and possibly even back to more of a LeanGains method of fasting ... we'll see.
Ok, I said I wasn't gonna talk about it, but my mind went there.
Life, and everything in it, is constantly changing. We have to change with it. Although sometimes change is sad at first, it's not always a bad thing. All things happen for a reason, I do believe that. Change forces us to take action. And we prevail, and come out stronger. "What doesn't kill ya...." You know the song. I personally prefer the Metallica version "What don't kill ya make ya more strong", but I don't see Les Mills using that in any tracks. Bummer.
You Les Mills fans reading this may know that our beloved company that produces these amazing workouts, that has become a wonderfully amazing part of our lives, that has led me to meeting my awesome friends, meet the man of my dreams, helped me to quit smoking, and of course, to become The Machine! ;) ... got off track, sorry ... Anyways... Les Mills is based out of New Zealand, also home of the Maori tribe. You've seen a lot of us instructors wearing our necklaces with the different Maori symbols, each with their own meaning...
The necklace I wear is the Maori tribe symbol (the spiral) called the Koru, also in the tattoo on my neck. It means 'New Beginnings'. That means a lot to me, for several reasons.
To my Gold's Les Mills peeps: This is only our New Beginning. Ready to get stronger?!
Kia Kaha!
Saturday, June 29, 2013
We're just gonna start over...
Goodies at work...tailgaiting at Jimmy Buffett...steak & shake at 1am... pool party get together at the house... candy pizza (twice), lots of margarita. Yeah. Um... didn't write it down, and I'm not going to even try. I enjoyed it. It's over. Moving on!
I do realize at least though that, even as much as I enjoy my splurging during special occasions, it does physically make me feel like crap afterwards. Bloated, constipated ... just crappy. We all know the feeling. But it does help me during those non-special-occasion moments where I want something junky just because it sounds good, but have no way of justifying it. I remind me self of that yucky feeling and know the regret that comes after a moment of weakness. I have to decide if it's worth it or not. And usually it's not. If it is worth it, great! Enjoy! Move on.
I'm getting better though. Even during those special occasions, I still don't do as bad as I used to. Still maybe worse than other people, yes. But I'm not other people, I'm me.
Back at work tonight, and as much as I wanted to do a fast, I know that I cannot do that while I work. Mentally, it's just not happening. Fasts should be enjoyable (if you don't fast or understand the reasoning behind fasting, that probably sounds crazy to you, I know!), and if you struggle to make it thru your fast, and if feels like torture or punishment, then it's best to not fast.
One more week and we leave for Kentucky to see my family and my little boy! He doesn't sound like he is missing me too bad yet. :/ Glad he is having a good time tho!
Ok, time to study BodyPump. Have a great weekend all!!
I do realize at least though that, even as much as I enjoy my splurging during special occasions, it does physically make me feel like crap afterwards. Bloated, constipated ... just crappy. We all know the feeling. But it does help me during those non-special-occasion moments where I want something junky just because it sounds good, but have no way of justifying it. I remind me self of that yucky feeling and know the regret that comes after a moment of weakness. I have to decide if it's worth it or not. And usually it's not. If it is worth it, great! Enjoy! Move on.
I'm getting better though. Even during those special occasions, I still don't do as bad as I used to. Still maybe worse than other people, yes. But I'm not other people, I'm me.
Back at work tonight, and as much as I wanted to do a fast, I know that I cannot do that while I work. Mentally, it's just not happening. Fasts should be enjoyable (if you don't fast or understand the reasoning behind fasting, that probably sounds crazy to you, I know!), and if you struggle to make it thru your fast, and if feels like torture or punishment, then it's best to not fast.
One more week and we leave for Kentucky to see my family and my little boy! He doesn't sound like he is missing me too bad yet. :/ Glad he is having a good time tho!
Ok, time to study BodyPump. Have a great weekend all!!
Monday, June 24, 2013
Super fun weekend...totally worth the extra calories
My Saturday/Sunday eating (ahem...and drinking) was not good, health-wise, but I planned for it to not be good, so I'm ok with it. Not often do I get a weekend off with no kids whatsoever, and boy did I love every minute of it (and every calorie)!
Back on track today, feeling good after my 24-hour fast (boy I timed that well didn't I, right after my weekend that I'm off?!), and prepared for another few days of healthy eating (being in a bikini so often also is definitely keeping me motivated!) until I splurge again on Thursday. BUFFETT!! Yay! Not that I'm a big Buffett fan or anything, but an entire day of hanging out and drinking with some of my favorite people, (hopefully in the sunshine!), and enjoying life (and again, no kids)!
Kaleb did talk to me on the phone today. He's at Grandma's now, still not homesick. He's been gone a week now and still only talked to me on twice...and today he only talked because I told him I had something exciting to tell him. That we are going to get a dog! It's my friend Courtney's American Bulldog-Shar pei mix, and he is ADORABLE! She is moving to Alaska... Love the dog, but I will miss Courtney dearly! :( (Don't worry Court, we'll take care of Conan! And it means you must visit me every time you're home!)
Anywho, here's my food:
Friday
2am Greek Yogurt/berries/almonds
5am Cliff bar
(Sleep)
Kind bar, EAS Lean whey protein
6pm Panera Steak & Blue Cheese chopped salad
Mixed Fruit, Greek yogurt
Peppers, Hummus
Saturday
8am(PWO)- Ezekiel toast, pb, agave
*BodyPump, BodyCombat*
Muscle Milk Protein
12:30pm Grilled cheese w/Turkey,avocado
***The fun starts now***
(Pre-Indians game:)
1 Strawberry-rita
5:30pm - 2 brats, homemade chips w/ranch
Strawberry shortcake dessert
Vodka
1 beer
M&m's at the game...the BIG bag!
11pm? - Hot Box Pizza & cheese sticks
Sunday
9am(PWO)- Oatmeal, half apple, walnuts
EAS Lean Protein
*BodyCombat, CX Worx*
1pm - Hamburger patty (no bun), kettle chips
***The fun continues!***
On the boat: Vodka, captain morgan
3pm - Spinach artichoke dip & chips, fries w/ranch
6pm Strawberry shortcake, frozen margarita
Start fast 6pm
Monday
*Heavy Lift*: Squats (hit 200lbs today!!), Barbell overhead press, chin-ups, + Abs & 5-minute hover(fasted, BCAA's afterwards)
6pm (broke fast)- 2-egg omelette w/cheese & roast beef, 2 pieces ezekial toast w/homemade jam, OJ
10pm Kind bar
2am - Tilapia, couscous, veggies
Tata for now!
Back on track today, feeling good after my 24-hour fast (boy I timed that well didn't I, right after my weekend that I'm off?!), and prepared for another few days of healthy eating (being in a bikini so often also is definitely keeping me motivated!) until I splurge again on Thursday. BUFFETT!! Yay! Not that I'm a big Buffett fan or anything, but an entire day of hanging out and drinking with some of my favorite people, (hopefully in the sunshine!), and enjoying life (and again, no kids)!
Kaleb did talk to me on the phone today. He's at Grandma's now, still not homesick. He's been gone a week now and still only talked to me on twice...and today he only talked because I told him I had something exciting to tell him. That we are going to get a dog! It's my friend Courtney's American Bulldog-Shar pei mix, and he is ADORABLE! She is moving to Alaska... Love the dog, but I will miss Courtney dearly! :( (Don't worry Court, we'll take care of Conan! And it means you must visit me every time you're home!)
Anywho, here's my food:
Friday
2am Greek Yogurt/berries/almonds
5am Cliff bar
(Sleep)
Kind bar, EAS Lean whey protein
6pm Panera Steak & Blue Cheese chopped salad
Mixed Fruit, Greek yogurt
Peppers, Hummus
Saturday
8am(PWO)- Ezekiel toast, pb, agave
*BodyPump, BodyCombat*
Muscle Milk Protein
12:30pm Grilled cheese w/Turkey,avocado
***The fun starts now***
(Pre-Indians game:)
1 Strawberry-rita
5:30pm - 2 brats, homemade chips w/ranch
Strawberry shortcake dessert
Vodka
1 beer
M&m's at the game...the BIG bag!
11pm? - Hot Box Pizza & cheese sticks
Sunday
9am(PWO)- Oatmeal, half apple, walnuts
EAS Lean Protein
*BodyCombat, CX Worx*
1pm - Hamburger patty (no bun), kettle chips
***The fun continues!***
On the boat: Vodka, captain morgan
3pm - Spinach artichoke dip & chips, fries w/ranch
6pm Strawberry shortcake, frozen margarita
Start fast 6pm
Monday
*Heavy Lift*: Squats (hit 200lbs today!!), Barbell overhead press, chin-ups, + Abs & 5-minute hover(fasted, BCAA's afterwards)
6pm (broke fast)- 2-egg omelette w/cheese & roast beef, 2 pieces ezekial toast w/homemade jam, OJ
10pm Kind bar
2am - Tilapia, couscous, veggies
Tata for now!
Friday, June 21, 2013
Happy First Day of Summer!
Thursday
12:30am broke fast (24 hrs)
Salmon, sweet potato w/cinnamon butter
Peppers & hummus
Grapes, pear
Small handful of TollHouse flatbread minis (tasty!)
7:30am Egg scramble (two scrambled eggs, black beans, bell peppers, onions, salsa), Ezekiel toast w/homemade jam, oj
(sleep)
Protein/berry shake, banana
Clif bar (pwo)
*Heavy lift (160lb deadlift, 100lb bench press, 120lb barbell row*
Peppers, hummus
5:30 tilapia, couscous, veggies
Pear, Grapes
Healthy Choice Steamer meal - Pineapple Chicken
Wow it's been a long day. After I put my food on here, thinking it had been a couple days-worth, I realized it was all only Thursday!
Definitely tired tonight. I woke up a few hours earlier than I normally would have because I went to lay the pool with a couple of my girl friends, and wanted to get back early enough to get my heavy lifting in (officially started training w/Steve today), and take a nap before work. It all happened except for the nap, but that's ok. I love, love, LOVE getting to lay by the pool. Closest thing I'm gonna get to a vacation without kids for a while, so I'll take it... a couple hours at a time!
Speaking of the pool, I must say I could definitely tell a difference in my body after not eating any junk or bread, etc the last two days. Much less bloated! Going strong ... I do plan on treating myself a little this weekend...date night Saturday, boating on Sunday. But do not plan on going overboard (literally and figuratively)! That will be my 10% for the week. Back to work Mon-Wed, which makes it easier to eat well, and then my 10% for next week will be Thursday night...BUFFETT!! Also getting excited about the Mudathlon next Saturday!!!
I miss Kaleb tons, especially since he won't talk to me on the phone so far, but I do enjoy my little break in the summer. Even if only a week or two. I am diggin the third shift more and more, having the days off during the week, and being home during the daytime too. Even if I'm sleeping a good part of it.
Enough rambling for now. Good night! Happy Summer!!!!
12:30am broke fast (24 hrs)
Salmon, sweet potato w/cinnamon butter
Peppers & hummus
Grapes, pear
Small handful of TollHouse flatbread minis (tasty!)
7:30am Egg scramble (two scrambled eggs, black beans, bell peppers, onions, salsa), Ezekiel toast w/homemade jam, oj
(sleep)
Protein/berry shake, banana
Clif bar (pwo)
*Heavy lift (160lb deadlift, 100lb bench press, 120lb barbell row*
Peppers, hummus
5:30 tilapia, couscous, veggies
Pear, Grapes
Healthy Choice Steamer meal - Pineapple Chicken
Wow it's been a long day. After I put my food on here, thinking it had been a couple days-worth, I realized it was all only Thursday!
Definitely tired tonight. I woke up a few hours earlier than I normally would have because I went to lay the pool with a couple of my girl friends, and wanted to get back early enough to get my heavy lifting in (officially started training w/Steve today), and take a nap before work. It all happened except for the nap, but that's ok. I love, love, LOVE getting to lay by the pool. Closest thing I'm gonna get to a vacation without kids for a while, so I'll take it... a couple hours at a time!
Speaking of the pool, I must say I could definitely tell a difference in my body after not eating any junk or bread, etc the last two days. Much less bloated! Going strong ... I do plan on treating myself a little this weekend...date night Saturday, boating on Sunday. But do not plan on going overboard (literally and figuratively)! That will be my 10% for the week. Back to work Mon-Wed, which makes it easier to eat well, and then my 10% for next week will be Thursday night...BUFFETT!! Also getting excited about the Mudathlon next Saturday!!!
I miss Kaleb tons, especially since he won't talk to me on the phone so far, but I do enjoy my little break in the summer. Even if only a week or two. I am diggin the third shift more and more, having the days off during the week, and being home during the daytime too. Even if I'm sleeping a good part of it.
Enough rambling for now. Good night! Happy Summer!!!!
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Those damn Reese Puffs are back, but it's ok. It's out of my system. Now... It's Time.
So, I'm not beating myself up, but I do admit I've made some extremely poor food choices the last few days. I did regret them afterwards, but I'm moving on. Today is a new day.
Here it is.
Sunday
Greek Yogurt, berries, almonds
Apple,natural peanut butter
Omelette w/cheese and sausage, bacon, toast w/cinnamon butter, OJ
Grilled cheese w/ Turkey, avocado, honey mustard (yum!)
Pita chips, hummus
Kind bar
Pear
All natural frozen meal - Chipotle Chicken Mac & Cheese (it was ok)
Goodies at work-2 Soft Batch cookies, 2 Oreos, Nilla wafers (regret... apparently I make bad decisions between 3am-7am!)
I think had my meal choice been better I wouldn't have been "hungry" all night.
Monday
Omelette w/cheese & sausage & peppers/onions, Ezekiel today w/homemade strawerry jam (thanks Steve's mom!!), oj
Turkey/roast beef grilled cheese,avocado
Pita chips, hummus
Banana
*BodyPump*
Homemade Pizza, garlic bread
Reese puffs - just a handful
Tuesday
*2 Pecan Pancakes, 2 slices French toast, bacon, oj
Ezekiel toast, pb, agave and protein milk
*BodyPump*
Chicken, veggies, crescent rolls, butter
Vodka, Reese puffs (lots), honey bun...huge regrets today
Wednesday - Long Fast!
*Practice BodyCombat at home*
Ok so the Pecan pancakes, granted, were at brunch with my Dad, whom I see a few times a year, so it was wonderful to eat at Cracker Barrel with him and see him for a little while. BUT, knowing that Kaleb wasn't going to eat all of his french toast, I knew better than to still get the pancakes. I should have definitely gone the eggs route.
I do know that pretty much any time I eat a lot of bread/white flour products I always feel like crap afterwards. Check-in day (bodyfat %) is in 11 days. Time to crack down.
I don't say that because of the crap I ate. I'm just saying, it's time.
I've been reading the most wonderful blogs and even a book by Nia Shanks. You can check out her stuff on www.niashanks.com or www.beautifullbadass.com . Good stuff. I like her a lot. Not just because she is from Kentucky! ;)
I said before that if I really wanted to crack down, I would, it just hasn't been a priority. I want it to be. Cut the crap. Eat real food 90% of the time (eat what I want the other 10%, which comes to about 2-3 meals a week). Eat when I'm hungry (I need to retrain my brain to remember). Stop when I'm full (always been a struggle, but I will slow down when I eat and pay attention). I will focus mainly on lean protein and fruits and veggies. Instead of bread I will eat Ezekial bread (no flour).
Not that these are new concepts or anything. But they are all things I've done, I just haven't stuck to it. I am challenging myself, not making a vow to be perfect. If I slip, I'll get back on. I even hired Steve as my personal trainer for my heavy lifting at home (following the training programs in the Beautiful Badass book also). I want to feel better. And look better. And continue to get healthier and more fit. So what have I got to lose (besides fat)?!
Now, just keep in mind that the Jimmy Buffett concert next Thursday WILL be in my 10%. Holla!! (Thanks Ang, you got me saying it now!)
Laters
Here it is.
Sunday
Greek Yogurt, berries, almonds
Apple,natural peanut butter
Omelette w/cheese and sausage, bacon, toast w/cinnamon butter, OJ
Grilled cheese w/ Turkey, avocado, honey mustard (yum!)
Pita chips, hummus
Kind bar
Pear
All natural frozen meal - Chipotle Chicken Mac & Cheese (it was ok)
Goodies at work-2 Soft Batch cookies, 2 Oreos, Nilla wafers (regret... apparently I make bad decisions between 3am-7am!)
I think had my meal choice been better I wouldn't have been "hungry" all night.
Monday
Omelette w/cheese & sausage & peppers/onions, Ezekiel today w/homemade strawerry jam (thanks Steve's mom!!), oj
Turkey/roast beef grilled cheese,avocado
Pita chips, hummus
Banana
*BodyPump*
Homemade Pizza, garlic bread
Reese puffs - just a handful
Tuesday
*2 Pecan Pancakes, 2 slices French toast, bacon, oj
Ezekiel toast, pb, agave and protein milk
*BodyPump*
Chicken, veggies, crescent rolls, butter
Vodka, Reese puffs (lots), honey bun...huge regrets today
Wednesday - Long Fast!
*Practice BodyCombat at home*
Ok so the Pecan pancakes, granted, were at brunch with my Dad, whom I see a few times a year, so it was wonderful to eat at Cracker Barrel with him and see him for a little while. BUT, knowing that Kaleb wasn't going to eat all of his french toast, I knew better than to still get the pancakes. I should have definitely gone the eggs route.
I do know that pretty much any time I eat a lot of bread/white flour products I always feel like crap afterwards. Check-in day (bodyfat %) is in 11 days. Time to crack down.
I don't say that because of the crap I ate. I'm just saying, it's time.
I've been reading the most wonderful blogs and even a book by Nia Shanks. You can check out her stuff on www.niashanks.com or www.beautifullbadass.com . Good stuff. I like her a lot. Not just because she is from Kentucky! ;)
I said before that if I really wanted to crack down, I would, it just hasn't been a priority. I want it to be. Cut the crap. Eat real food 90% of the time (eat what I want the other 10%, which comes to about 2-3 meals a week). Eat when I'm hungry (I need to retrain my brain to remember). Stop when I'm full (always been a struggle, but I will slow down when I eat and pay attention). I will focus mainly on lean protein and fruits and veggies. Instead of bread I will eat Ezekial bread (no flour).
Not that these are new concepts or anything. But they are all things I've done, I just haven't stuck to it. I am challenging myself, not making a vow to be perfect. If I slip, I'll get back on. I even hired Steve as my personal trainer for my heavy lifting at home (following the training programs in the Beautiful Badass book also). I want to feel better. And look better. And continue to get healthier and more fit. So what have I got to lose (besides fat)?!
Now, just keep in mind that the Jimmy Buffett concert next Thursday WILL be in my 10%. Holla!! (Thanks Ang, you got me saying it now!)
Laters
Saturday, June 15, 2013
This post took an unexpected turn...
I've had a really great last couple of days. I know I talk mostly about food-related issues on here, but I just have to say that I am so happy that Kaleb is riding his bike finally!! Those of you who know me personally, and know Kaleb, may know this is a huge deal! He typically does NOT like going outside at all, but he did it! And he is a pro already! He had the biggest smile on his face every time he rode past me. :) I even went out and bought myself a bike (which I've wanted to for a long time) and we went on two bike rides yesterday. AND he got in the pool with Anna and Nathan too ... he said he LIKES being outside now! Haha. Very excited.
He has been off his ADHD meds now for two weeks! And he is so much more "himself" now. He is happier, and definitely much less irritable. Only a few minor incidents of him getting upset at all, so much much improved. I guess I'm so excited just that we can, for the first time really, go out and do more outdoors-y stuff and him actually enjoy it. Steve is bringing bikes home from his parents' house too so we can all go on family bike rides. Yay! Between everything going on in our life right now, me working third shift, teaching our classes, doc appointments, Steve's crazy schedule, only having his kiddos during the daytime most days ... we just don't really get a lot of family time, so yes, a family bike ride is exciting to me! Or just getting to spend mommy-kaleb time doing something more enjoyable than playing xbox, beyblades, or legos! And to get to spend time OUTSIDE, that isn't walking to/from a vehicle...priceless!
Ok, just wanted to share that!
Back to food and exercise! LOL
For those of you still wondering why I'm doing this (posting my every bite) ... there are a few different reasons. I have had a lot of girls ask me "what do you eat?". Well, here it is! It is also my own food log. No point in keeping a separate log somewhere. Accountability is a big one. Because my food struggles are in my head, it's a psychological thing. Knowing that I'm going to post it later, and someone may read it, HAS prevented me from eating things that I would have later regretted. For some people, "weight loss", "fat loss", "healthy living", "eating clean" - whatever you want to call it - is "simple". Eat real foods, avoiding processed food, eat lean meats, fruits & veggies, whole grains. Eat slower, listen to your body-stop when you're full..... Yes, the concept is simple. The reality of applying it, for some, is not always so simple. We all have our own different struggles. What's easy for some is not easy for others. It doesn't mean we don't understand the concept of WHAT to do to achieve what we want to achieve. However, it doesn't meant that we can't or won't achieve it either. It just means we may use different tools. For me, being visible and accountable helps me. Because I am FULLY capable of eating the entire dozen cookies by myself. But would be HORRIFIED if I did, and someone knew about it. Not everyone can understand what it's like to have a food addiction. To, for whatever reason, eat junk food to EXCESS in private when no one is looking. To eat, and eat, and eat candy bars, cookies, cake ... whatever is there...even if it isn't the best tasting thing in the world... just eating it because it's sweet and no one is looking. To raid the kids' halloween candy when people are sleeping. To raid the fridge/cabinets for any sweet that can be found...or if there is nothing, find an excuse to run to the store/gas station because I "NEED" something sweet. I know it sounds rediculous...to some. To others, you may think, HOLY CRAP I'VE BEEN THERE! For those people ... that's my biggest reason for posting. It is an addiction. One that I am beating. I can't "fix" my addictive personality. But I'm learning how to be stronger than it.
So please don't misinterpret my "good food/bad" food comments or anything along those lines as "beating myself up" for treating myself. I'm not giving advice on how others should eat. I make the decision for everything I put in my mouth. I enjoy my girls nights desserts & drinks. And my cinnamon rolls with Kaleb. And yeah, I may eat more than what is "normal" for most other people...but I'm not eating the whole dozen. And I'm not bingeing when no one is looking....because now I never know who is looking. I vowed to post every bite, and I do. Not that this blog is the sole purpose I don't binge. But it helps. It's one of my tools. And even though it's a tool for ME, that doesn't mean that others can't relate to it.
So wow, I didn't intend for this post to totally expose the severity of my addiction, but hey, there it is.
My initial intention was just to post my food...hahaha. So here ya go!
Thursday
PWO: Oatmeal, berries, banana, milk
Noon BodyPump (#1)
Protein/berry shake, 1/4 of Kaleb's leftover burger
PWO: WG English muffin/pb/agave, milk
5:30 BodyCombat, 6:30pm BodyPump (#2)
9pm Chicken, couscous, veggies
Girls night! Yummy pudding/strawberry/angel food cake dessert, chocolate chip cookies (lost count), Vodka
Friday
McD's Egg white delight, yogurt parfait, Half cinnamon melt* (Kaleb and I shared one, love when we get to have breakfast out together, and we always get a cinnamon roll!)
1:30pm Burger, a few potato chips
PWO: Clif bar
5:30pm BodyCombat, CXWorx
8:30pm Pizza King pizza and cheese bread (did much better than usual, stopped when full, and not waaay overful...progress)
Chocolate Chip Cookies (4, counting the one unbaked=600 cals). Now I know why I don't keep this stuff at home!
Saturday
PWO: WG english muffin/pb/agave, milk
9:30 BodyPump, 10:30 BodyCombat
Protein milk
12:30 Tuna (no bread), a few tortilla chips w/ salsa
6pm Panera Steak and Blue cheese chopped salad - YUM!!(no baguette)
Pear
He has been off his ADHD meds now for two weeks! And he is so much more "himself" now. He is happier, and definitely much less irritable. Only a few minor incidents of him getting upset at all, so much much improved. I guess I'm so excited just that we can, for the first time really, go out and do more outdoors-y stuff and him actually enjoy it. Steve is bringing bikes home from his parents' house too so we can all go on family bike rides. Yay! Between everything going on in our life right now, me working third shift, teaching our classes, doc appointments, Steve's crazy schedule, only having his kiddos during the daytime most days ... we just don't really get a lot of family time, so yes, a family bike ride is exciting to me! Or just getting to spend mommy-kaleb time doing something more enjoyable than playing xbox, beyblades, or legos! And to get to spend time OUTSIDE, that isn't walking to/from a vehicle...priceless!
Ok, just wanted to share that!
Back to food and exercise! LOL
For those of you still wondering why I'm doing this (posting my every bite) ... there are a few different reasons. I have had a lot of girls ask me "what do you eat?". Well, here it is! It is also my own food log. No point in keeping a separate log somewhere. Accountability is a big one. Because my food struggles are in my head, it's a psychological thing. Knowing that I'm going to post it later, and someone may read it, HAS prevented me from eating things that I would have later regretted. For some people, "weight loss", "fat loss", "healthy living", "eating clean" - whatever you want to call it - is "simple". Eat real foods, avoiding processed food, eat lean meats, fruits & veggies, whole grains. Eat slower, listen to your body-stop when you're full..... Yes, the concept is simple. The reality of applying it, for some, is not always so simple. We all have our own different struggles. What's easy for some is not easy for others. It doesn't mean we don't understand the concept of WHAT to do to achieve what we want to achieve. However, it doesn't meant that we can't or won't achieve it either. It just means we may use different tools. For me, being visible and accountable helps me. Because I am FULLY capable of eating the entire dozen cookies by myself. But would be HORRIFIED if I did, and someone knew about it. Not everyone can understand what it's like to have a food addiction. To, for whatever reason, eat junk food to EXCESS in private when no one is looking. To eat, and eat, and eat candy bars, cookies, cake ... whatever is there...even if it isn't the best tasting thing in the world... just eating it because it's sweet and no one is looking. To raid the kids' halloween candy when people are sleeping. To raid the fridge/cabinets for any sweet that can be found...or if there is nothing, find an excuse to run to the store/gas station because I "NEED" something sweet. I know it sounds rediculous...to some. To others, you may think, HOLY CRAP I'VE BEEN THERE! For those people ... that's my biggest reason for posting. It is an addiction. One that I am beating. I can't "fix" my addictive personality. But I'm learning how to be stronger than it.
So please don't misinterpret my "good food/bad" food comments or anything along those lines as "beating myself up" for treating myself. I'm not giving advice on how others should eat. I make the decision for everything I put in my mouth. I enjoy my girls nights desserts & drinks. And my cinnamon rolls with Kaleb. And yeah, I may eat more than what is "normal" for most other people...but I'm not eating the whole dozen. And I'm not bingeing when no one is looking....because now I never know who is looking. I vowed to post every bite, and I do. Not that this blog is the sole purpose I don't binge. But it helps. It's one of my tools. And even though it's a tool for ME, that doesn't mean that others can't relate to it.
So wow, I didn't intend for this post to totally expose the severity of my addiction, but hey, there it is.
My initial intention was just to post my food...hahaha. So here ya go!
Thursday
PWO: Oatmeal, berries, banana, milk
Noon BodyPump (#1)
Protein/berry shake, 1/4 of Kaleb's leftover burger
PWO: WG English muffin/pb/agave, milk
5:30 BodyCombat, 6:30pm BodyPump (#2)
9pm Chicken, couscous, veggies
Girls night! Yummy pudding/strawberry/angel food cake dessert, chocolate chip cookies (lost count), Vodka
Friday
McD's Egg white delight, yogurt parfait, Half cinnamon melt* (Kaleb and I shared one, love when we get to have breakfast out together, and we always get a cinnamon roll!)
1:30pm Burger, a few potato chips
PWO: Clif bar
5:30pm BodyCombat, CXWorx
8:30pm Pizza King pizza and cheese bread (did much better than usual, stopped when full, and not waaay overful...progress)
Chocolate Chip Cookies (4, counting the one unbaked=600 cals). Now I know why I don't keep this stuff at home!
Saturday
PWO: WG english muffin/pb/agave, milk
9:30 BodyPump, 10:30 BodyCombat
Protein milk
12:30 Tuna (no bread), a few tortilla chips w/ salsa
6pm Panera Steak and Blue cheese chopped salad - YUM!!(no baguette)
Pear
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Here's the last few days' log. I'm going to start including my workouts too. I've talked myself out of home workouts before so might as well make myself accountable for those too!
MondayBroke my fast at 6pm (27 hrs)
*Rest day*
6pm Leftover sushi + protein/berry shake
2am Tenderloin sandwich, fries w/ranch (so so so good!)
6pm Leftover sushi + protein/berry shake
2am Tenderloin sandwich, fries w/ranch (so so so good!)
Tuesday2pm Turkey sandwich
Clif bar + protein milk
Clif bar + protein milk
*BodyPump*
Pretzels & peanut butter
Pretzels & peanut butter
1am Grilled chicken, couscous, steamed veggies
Peanut M&Ms...moment of weakness. Worth it.
Peanut M&Ms...moment of weakness. Worth it.
Wednesday7am Omelette (cheese & sausage), two slices WG toast w/butter, OJ
Clif bar, Banana
Clif bar, Banana
*HIIT - 4 Tabata sets*:
- Warmup: Butt kicks, Jumping Jacks, High knees, Tuck Jumps
- Set 1: Plyo lunges, Pushup jacks
- Set 2: Squat Jumps, heavy overhead push press
- Abs: Medicine ball - Upper/lower, Obliques
6pm Pulled pork sandwich w/cheese, baked beans
Greek Yogurt w/berries
Two BodyPumps and BodyCombat tomorrow...wish me luck! But then Girls Night!!!
Monday, June 10, 2013
More about me
I guess if you've been reading my blogs and don't really know much about me (besides everything that I eat!), then I understand why I may just seem like some weirdo posting all the crap I eat and not really understanding the why behind it!
I'm 32. I work a full-time 3rd shift job on a 2-week rotating schedule (12-hour shifts 7p-7a: Work 2, off 2, Work 2.5, Off 2, Work 2.5, off 2, repeat). I also teach Les Mills group fitness classes at 4 different gyms 4-5 days a week. I teach BodyCombat, BodyPump, BodyAttack, and CXWorx (see www.lesmills.com for more info). On top of the time spent teaching, I also put a lot of unpaid hours in learning chorey and practicing, but it's worth it. They are amazing classes, and the members ROCK! I've also made some freakin-awesome friends thru these classes (not to mention my 'better-half'!). Since I've taken this job, I am not teaching/taking as many classes as I used to, so I also try to get some HIIT intervals and heavy lifting in at home a couple times a week.
I am also a mom of an emotionally-challenged 9-year old boy. Doc appointments, therapy appointments, etc, hence the third shift job. I also have my own issues with iron-deficiency, so I have my own appointments for doctor & infusions. It just makes it easier to have those couple days off during the week to be able to schedule appointments without having to miss work. Third shift also make for great choreography-study time!
So I'm crazy busy, but consistently busy, so I can be organized and schedulistic still. But I am not complaining though, by any means. There are people out there a lot busier and dealing with a lot worse. Plus I have an amazing man who is awesome with taking care of the cooking, kids (together we have three kids), cleaning, laundry, vehicles, all the outdoor stuff too...he really is amazing! We are happy and healthy and we make it work! I just have to be very organized with my time!
I am in good shape, and I get lots of comments all the time from people about how great I look etc, and people are usually surprised to find out that I once weighed 208 lbs (pregnant), and lost 80 pounds after having my son. I think a lot of people think (because they've told me) that I'm one of those people who can eat whatever I want, OR that I eat perfectly. I am neither of those people. I struggle tremendously when it comes to food.
I am a self-professed junk-food addict and an overeater in general. I eat fast, and I eat a LOT. I don't have concrete-specific goals, but in a perfect world, my goal would be to get to close to 15-16% body fat, which would put me around 140. (Currently 151 and 19%). It's not about numbers though, so I consider it an 'ideal' goal, but if you have read previous posts of mine, you obviously know it's not a hugh priority for me right now of making that "goal" happen. I know enough to know that to get to my "perfect body", I would have to give up a lot of things that I love, and I'm just not willing to do that, completely, yet.
Honestly right now I'm trying to at least maintain, ideally create a weekly deficit and move down the scale rather than up, but right now I'm in this cycle where I always navigate back to 150. When I crack down on my eating and cut the crap (junk food, desserts, fast foot, white carbs especially), I drop pounds, then life happens and back I go.
I love food. I love drinking and hanging out with frinds. I love sharing a dessert with my little boy (although we end up fighting and probably looks like sword fighting with our spoons!). I just need to get out of the habit of eating all that as often as I do. And the embarrassment, or whatever you wanna call it (I'm not really embarrassed, I own my faults), of being completely transparent makes it easier for me to stick to eating healthier (I don't like the work Diet). I know people look up to me for fitness and nutrition and advise, so I don't want to pretend like I'm a big health-nut, always "eating clean", and then someone see me eating Cinnamon Melts dripping icing on my shirt while driving down the road!
I do know my faults. I know what to do. And what not to do. I know how to lose weight. I know what works for ME. The problem isn't a lack of knowledge about fitness and nutrition. My biggest problem is my head. Maybe one day I'll overcome my obstacles and have my idea of my own "perfect body". Maybe I'll continue this never-ending cycle...doubt it. Maybe I'll just say screw it, I like myself no matter how I look...doubt it. Maybe I'll balloon to 400 pounds...um, no. Either way, for right now, it is a daily battle that I will continue to fight. Even if no one is reading about it.
That's me in a nutshell :)
I'm 32. I work a full-time 3rd shift job on a 2-week rotating schedule (12-hour shifts 7p-7a: Work 2, off 2, Work 2.5, Off 2, Work 2.5, off 2, repeat). I also teach Les Mills group fitness classes at 4 different gyms 4-5 days a week. I teach BodyCombat, BodyPump, BodyAttack, and CXWorx (see www.lesmills.com for more info). On top of the time spent teaching, I also put a lot of unpaid hours in learning chorey and practicing, but it's worth it. They are amazing classes, and the members ROCK! I've also made some freakin-awesome friends thru these classes (not to mention my 'better-half'!). Since I've taken this job, I am not teaching/taking as many classes as I used to, so I also try to get some HIIT intervals and heavy lifting in at home a couple times a week.
I am also a mom of an emotionally-challenged 9-year old boy. Doc appointments, therapy appointments, etc, hence the third shift job. I also have my own issues with iron-deficiency, so I have my own appointments for doctor & infusions. It just makes it easier to have those couple days off during the week to be able to schedule appointments without having to miss work. Third shift also make for great choreography-study time!
So I'm crazy busy, but consistently busy, so I can be organized and schedulistic still. But I am not complaining though, by any means. There are people out there a lot busier and dealing with a lot worse. Plus I have an amazing man who is awesome with taking care of the cooking, kids (together we have three kids), cleaning, laundry, vehicles, all the outdoor stuff too...he really is amazing! We are happy and healthy and we make it work! I just have to be very organized with my time!
I am in good shape, and I get lots of comments all the time from people about how great I look etc, and people are usually surprised to find out that I once weighed 208 lbs (pregnant), and lost 80 pounds after having my son. I think a lot of people think (because they've told me) that I'm one of those people who can eat whatever I want, OR that I eat perfectly. I am neither of those people. I struggle tremendously when it comes to food.
I am a self-professed junk-food addict and an overeater in general. I eat fast, and I eat a LOT. I don't have concrete-specific goals, but in a perfect world, my goal would be to get to close to 15-16% body fat, which would put me around 140. (Currently 151 and 19%). It's not about numbers though, so I consider it an 'ideal' goal, but if you have read previous posts of mine, you obviously know it's not a hugh priority for me right now of making that "goal" happen. I know enough to know that to get to my "perfect body", I would have to give up a lot of things that I love, and I'm just not willing to do that, completely, yet.
Honestly right now I'm trying to at least maintain, ideally create a weekly deficit and move down the scale rather than up, but right now I'm in this cycle where I always navigate back to 150. When I crack down on my eating and cut the crap (junk food, desserts, fast foot, white carbs especially), I drop pounds, then life happens and back I go.
I love food. I love drinking and hanging out with frinds. I love sharing a dessert with my little boy (although we end up fighting and probably looks like sword fighting with our spoons!). I just need to get out of the habit of eating all that as often as I do. And the embarrassment, or whatever you wanna call it (I'm not really embarrassed, I own my faults), of being completely transparent makes it easier for me to stick to eating healthier (I don't like the work Diet). I know people look up to me for fitness and nutrition and advise, so I don't want to pretend like I'm a big health-nut, always "eating clean", and then someone see me eating Cinnamon Melts dripping icing on my shirt while driving down the road!
I do know my faults. I know what to do. And what not to do. I know how to lose weight. I know what works for ME. The problem isn't a lack of knowledge about fitness and nutrition. My biggest problem is my head. Maybe one day I'll overcome my obstacles and have my idea of my own "perfect body". Maybe I'll continue this never-ending cycle...doubt it. Maybe I'll just say screw it, I like myself no matter how I look...doubt it. Maybe I'll balloon to 400 pounds...um, no. Either way, for right now, it is a daily battle that I will continue to fight. Even if no one is reading about it.
That's me in a nutshell :)
Afterthought: CRAP! I gotta blog that!
I really think if I would blog every day or two, that I would do better. I don't know how many times in the last week I've eaten crap "in the moment" and completely forgotten about my vow of accountability/visibility. Well, here it is...
Wednesday into Thursday
(Fasted all of Wed til 1am Thur)
1am Salmon, veggies
Kind bar
Pear
(Fasted all of Wed til 1am Thur)
1am Salmon, veggies
Kind bar
Pear
Greek Yogurt w/berries/almonds
Thursday
7am Leftover pecan pancakes, eggs**
Kind bar, Protein Shake (pre-workout)
6pm Omelette, toast (before work)
Pear
1am Bbq pork calzone (at work)
Greek yogurt w/berries, almonds
7am Leftover pecan pancakes, eggs**
Kind bar, Protein Shake (pre-workout)
6pm Omelette, toast (before work)
Pear
1am Bbq pork calzone (at work)
Greek yogurt w/berries, almonds
Friday
7am Bacon Egg Cheese biscuit, cinnamon melts (yes, McDonald's)**
7am Bacon Egg Cheese biscuit, cinnamon melts (yes, McDonald's)**
6pm Turkey sandwich
Pear
11pm Salad
Banana bread
Pear
11pm Salad
Banana bread
Saturday
8am WG English muffin/PB/Agave, protein milk
1pm Arbys Turkey Ranch Bacon sandwich, two cheese sticks
Steve's mom's homemade Apple cake... holy crap amazing (2.5 pieces)
Steve's 20-year Reunion:
Strawberry Shortcake Vodka
"Down-On-One-Knee" wow
7pm? Pulled pork
Pasta salad
Cheese ball, crackers
Cupcakes (I was drunk, lost count of how many. At least 3).
8am WG English muffin/PB/Agave, protein milk
1pm Arbys Turkey Ranch Bacon sandwich, two cheese sticks
Steve's mom's homemade Apple cake... holy crap amazing (2.5 pieces)
Steve's 20-year Reunion:
Strawberry Shortcake Vodka
"Down-On-One-Knee" wow
7pm? Pulled pork
Pasta salad
Cheese ball, crackers
Cupcakes (I was drunk, lost count of how many. At least 3).
Sunday
8am Clif bar, banana, chocolate milk (pre-workout)
2pm Sushi
Banana bread
Fasting 3pm - still going...
8am Clif bar, banana, chocolate milk (pre-workout)
2pm Sushi
Banana bread
Fasting 3pm - still going...
Ok, so I learned some more this week. I need to tell about those pancakes. I definitely did not eat enough after my 26-hour fast. Even though I snack every few hours or so at work that night/morning, I was STAAAAAARRRRVING by the time I got off work at 7am. It didn't help that probably around 3am I thought of the Le Peep leftover pecan pancakes that were sitting in my fridge! I think I drove 55mph home on Pennsylvania Ave. I grabbed the pancakes out of the fridge, ripped the lid off and threw them in the microwave, scrambled two eggs in like 30 seconds, and couldn't get the syrup (all-natural at least) into the microwave fast enough. Poured my OJ, and by 7:15 was going to town on those fabulous flapjacks! They were still even a little cold. I didn't care. If anyone had seen me or videotaped the incident, I would ... I don't know, it would have been hilarious! Thank God Steve wasn't awake to witness it. It may not have been safe for anyone to be in that kitchen. Ok....we don't mention this ever again.
The next morning when I got off work at 7am was not much better actually. I knew we were out of eggs (see story above). And again I was STARVING, so I passed my road and proceeded to Arby's. Even checking out their breakfast menu on the way there so I could order immediately upon arrival at the window. Apparently the Arbys at 96th & Meridian does not serve breakfast! Accross the road to McDonald's, knowing I would not be able to resist the Cinnamon Melts. Bacon Egg and Cheese biscuit it is. How often do I eat Mickey-D's breakfast? Not very. Sold. Ate half the melts on the way home, dripping that amazing cinnamon-laden icing on my shirt in the process. Rediculous.
And then there was the trip to Rensselaer for the reunion. Anytime we go to his parents' house there are (usually homemade) goodies. The apple cake was totally worth it. Yes, all two-and-a-half pieces. The reunion speaks for itself, except the Down On One Knees. Holy Crap. So I've been hearing about this drink for almost 4 years now. Four alcohols (Everclear and whiskey I know....not sure what else) and four juices. Tastes like Tang. DANGEROUS! Knowing what I knew already from stories I've heard, I knew to take it easy (and I have a decent tolerance thanks to my love of Tequila). I had only had one glass so far of my vodka/7-up, so I only asked for a half a glass of DOOK. I was about halfway done with my half-glass and it hit me. What in the world is in this stuff! By the end of the night I had another 3/4-full glass, and drank about half my bottle of vodka. I was feeling pretty good...a little too good for having to teach BodyCombat/CX the next morning. Got to his mom's at @ 2am, slept til 7am, and the majority of the 1.5-hour drive home the next morning. He dropped me off at Gold's Gym at 9:30am, and since class wasn't til 10:30am, I rolled up a mat as a pillow, set my alarm, and slept on the stage til 10am. Made it through tho! I actually felt pretty damn during class...considering.... lol
So yes, I'm on another 24-hour fast today. Since 3pm yesterday, but will probably keep going until dinner at 6pm. Feeling pretty good.
So, what I learned. On my long shift work days, I MUST eat an actual meal before work, and during my shift (instead of just snacks). I need to skip having a meal at the typical lunch-time at home, and have my three meals be my 6pm "Breakfast", 12am "Dinner", and 7am "Dinner/Breakfast" . I will also eat a 3pm pre-workout snack when I wake up.
I also learned that I need to NOT forget that I'm going to blog everything I eat! So my goal is to blog every 1-2 days. if nothing else, I will post my food log, and write more when I have more time.
Thanks all! Feel free to comment. I can take it. ;)
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Eat Stop Eat
I completely had this blog completely typed, saved, and published, and then accidentally DELETED it! Grr.... so here goes again!
This week hasn't been the best or the worst, but more good than bad ;)
Friday
Grilled cheese w/roast beef slices/avocado/tomato (w/butter) YUM!
WG English muffin/PB/agave/cinnamon + protein milk
Yummy steak, baked potato w/plain greek yogurt, cheese, butter
Ice cream cookie sandwich (see, not great, but worth it!)
Grilled cheese w/roast beef slices/avocado/tomato (w/butter) YUM!
WG English muffin/PB/agave/cinnamon + protein milk
Yummy steak, baked potato w/plain greek yogurt, cheese, butter
Ice cream cookie sandwich (see, not great, but worth it!)
Saturday
Oatmeal w/banana & walnuts + Protein milk
Steak & Shake Frisco + cheese fries (REALLY not good!)
Protein shake
Greek yogurt/half banana/almonds
Salmon, veggies
Kind bar
Ritz crackers
Oatmeal w/banana & walnuts + Protein milk
Steak & Shake Frisco + cheese fries (REALLY not good!)
Protein shake
Greek yogurt/half banana/almonds
Salmon, veggies
Kind bar
Ritz crackers
Sunday
2 NutriGrain blueberry waffles/pb/agave/cinnamon, milk
Protein shake, banana
Two brats on buns
Nuts/dark chocolate mix
Vanilla Greek yogurt/berries/almonds
2 chocolate chip cookies (gave in at work) + apple slices/carmel
Crackers
2 NutriGrain blueberry waffles/pb/agave/cinnamon, milk
Protein shake, banana
Two brats on buns
Nuts/dark chocolate mix
Vanilla Greek yogurt/berries/almonds
2 chocolate chip cookies (gave in at work) + apple slices/carmel
Crackers
Monday
Chicken & Ranch Mcwrap/2 nuggets
Nut mix & kind bar
Panera salad (turkey fugi apple!) + baguette
Cookies & milk
Smirnoff (2)
Chicken & Ranch Mcwrap/2 nuggets
Nut mix & kind bar
Panera salad (turkey fugi apple!) + baguette
Cookies & milk
Smirnoff (2)
Tuesday
Pecan pancakes/eggs/bacon/OJ (brunch with Kaleb at LePeep!)
English muffin/pb/agave/cinnamon + protein milk
Spaghetti w/grilled chicken breast, garlic bread, milk
Cheese, tortilla chips, 1 beer
Pecan pancakes/eggs/bacon/OJ (brunch with Kaleb at LePeep!)
English muffin/pb/agave/cinnamon + protein milk
Spaghetti w/grilled chicken breast, garlic bread, milk
Cheese, tortilla chips, 1 beer
Wednesday
24+ hour fast (water/black coffee)
24+ hour fast (water/black coffee)
I did it! 26+ hour fast (30+ hours between actual meals). And I broke my fast at 1am this morning with a salmon filet & veggies, greek yogurt and berries. Was much easier to do than I thought (the last 6 hours was at work). I used to do daily 16/85 fasts most weekdays, but with my new work & workout schedule, it made that nearly impossible. So I am instead going to follow the Eat Stop Eat lifestyle (1 or 2 24-hour fasts per week). Anyone considering intermittent fasting or wanting to know about it, the "Eat Stop Eat" book (by Brad Pilon) is the Bible of I.F. I really do think I'll like this approach better than the daily fasts, so I'm pretty excited about it! (Me, excited about NOT eating?!!)
Anywho, feeling good about this week! I'm not weighing in until Saturday (which is the day of Steve's 20-year high school reunion!).
Ta ta for now! :)
Friday, May 31, 2013
Back to scratch...
Ok, back to 150, those extra 4-ish pounds have come off and I'm back on track with my eating. I have determined after being back on third shift again that there are certain things I can and cannot do. I cannot fast during work, for sure, but I also know that I am going to have to eat at the end of my shift, otherwise I cannot sleep! So instead of daily fasts (16/8 or close to it), I am going to eat normally most days, having breakfast after my shift, and doing 1-2 long fasts a week, and one shorter fast (16-18 hrs) a week. This will vary based on my workouts/classes, but I have a schedule made up that is a little more realistic for my current schedule. Next step is meal-planning to make sure I'm eating enough but not too much. This is a little more in-depth than I've gone before, but I realize I do better with more structure. I can't follow a strict mealplan created by someone else, but I've never tried creating my own. Typically, I eat the same stuff over and over anyways. As much as I like to have things organized, I'm surprised I haven't done this before now!
So here's what I've eaten since my last post:
Monday (morning thru early Tues morning)
-100% whole grain English muffin w/all-natural PB +honey & cinnamon with protein powder/milk
-Fajita bowl (lettuce/chicken/avacado/jalapenos/salsa)
-Mixed nuts with dark chocolate pieces
-Vanilla Greek yogurt (Oiks) w/mixed berries & sliced almonds
-Kind bar (dark chocolate cherry...yum!)
Tuesday (7am thru to early Wed morning):
-Two hard boiled eggs + two pieces toast/butter & milk
-Oatmeal w/milk, berries, banana, walnuts + milk
- Kind bar
- Pizza (Papa Johns... I know)/cinnamon sticks
- Ritz crackers
Wednesday (morning after work, thru evening before work)
- Waffles w/milk
- Pita chips w/hummus
- BBQ pork sandwich
Fasted 6pm Wed thru 2pm Thur
Thursday
- Panera half salad (Blue cheese chopped...yum!) w/baguette
- Clif bar pre-workout
- Two-egg omelette w/toast + OJ
- Girls night: brownies, rice krispie treats & wine :/
Not the best, not the worst, but I feel much more in control than the last week or so. :)
Happy Friday!
So here's what I've eaten since my last post:
Monday (morning thru early Tues morning)
-100% whole grain English muffin w/all-natural PB +honey & cinnamon with protein powder/milk
-Fajita bowl (lettuce/chicken/avacado/jalapenos/salsa)
-Mixed nuts with dark chocolate pieces
-Vanilla Greek yogurt (Oiks) w/mixed berries & sliced almonds
-Kind bar (dark chocolate cherry...yum!)
Tuesday (7am thru to early Wed morning):
-Two hard boiled eggs + two pieces toast/butter & milk
-Oatmeal w/milk, berries, banana, walnuts + milk
- Kind bar
- Pizza (Papa Johns... I know)/cinnamon sticks
- Ritz crackers
Wednesday (morning after work, thru evening before work)
- Waffles w/milk
- Pita chips w/hummus
- BBQ pork sandwich
Fasted 6pm Wed thru 2pm Thur
Thursday
- Panera half salad (Blue cheese chopped...yum!) w/baguette
- Clif bar pre-workout
- Two-egg omelette w/toast + OJ
- Girls night: brownies, rice krispie treats & wine :/
Not the best, not the worst, but I feel much more in control than the last week or so. :)
Happy Friday!
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
I know, I know.... it's been a while!
Ok so I have come to realize some things since the last time I posted...
1) I must keep blogging! Knowing that I must tell you (whoever is reading this) everything I eat definitely gives me that accountability factor that I know I need. If I commit to daily posts, I know it will prevent me from eating things I otherwise eat in 'secret'.
Last week for three days I was in training for my new job downtown at Methodist Hospital. I didn't know any of those people and would likely never see them again. I don't know if that had something to do with why I let myself eat: a big bag of chocolate covered almonds (more chocolate than almond), a giant brownie (with chocolate chips), AND a big white chocolate macadamia nut cookie (that was Day 1). Or why on day 3 I went to the vending machine with the sole intention of buying a giant bag of Reese's Pieces and eating the whole bag. BUT...I guarantee that had I intended to blog those days, I would not have eaten any of it.
2) I must live (and eat) by a schedule. When I'm off of a routine, I just eat crappy. Maybe not 100% of the time...but enough to make a HUGE difference in my body. I may not do well on a very strict "diet" that doesn't allow for fluctuation, but I also don't do well with no structure at all. (Like mother like son I suppose!)
Now that I am on my third-shift rotation, done with training, and my classes are set, I know my schedule (crazy yet consistent) and I can plan my eating/fasting schedule accordingly.
3) This isn't something that I've only recently realized...I've known for a while, but has been reiterated to me during my time off from work. I am an addict. To many things. I have an addictive personality. I was a smoker for 16 years. I have a major junk food addiction. Maybe a food addiction in general. I am a workout-addict. When I clean, once I start, I can't stop. With my job, or learning choreography, I am a perfectionist; I want to know it inside and out. I'm all or nothing. That's why intermittent fasting works for me. When we have get-togethers, be it Thursday nights or family gatherings, I can't stop eating. When I drink, I more often than not drink WAY too much.
I am so tired of this cycle. I know my strengths and weaknesses. I am aware of how crazy I probably seem to those of you who hear me say the same things over and over, yet still repeat the cycle ever single week. I recognize, yet I don't know why. Why is it so hard to just NOT eat the things that I know I'm going to beat myself up about later? Why can't I stop at one or two of those little brownies with the frosting...instead of eating 6 of them? (Maybe 8.) I don't know why not.
But I do know that I can't give up and just say 'screw it'! Because there were a lot of things that I thought or said "I can't" do, or "I could never do that" and I DID.
"I can't give up pop." I did.
"I can't quit smoking." After several attempts, I did.
"I can't lose 70 pounds." I lost 80.
"I can't drive to Kentucky by myself". I can.
"I'm never going to be happy." I am.
"I can't teach BodyCombat/BodyAttack." I do.
So much of what we do and overcome is in our heads. I know this. I tell people this. I tell myself this. I found myself thinking about 'The Little Engine That Could' yesterday, and how true that story is. I do think I can...in fact I know I can.
It's 4:45am and now I'm just rambling. My point is, I am going to hold myself accountable, and I am going to keep posting. Even if no one is reading. But for those of you who are, I know there are people out there like me. That struggle. That can relate. And if nothing else, maybe it makes them feel better to know they aren't alone. Never give up.
"I can't get to 140 lbs." I will.
1) I must keep blogging! Knowing that I must tell you (whoever is reading this) everything I eat definitely gives me that accountability factor that I know I need. If I commit to daily posts, I know it will prevent me from eating things I otherwise eat in 'secret'.
Last week for three days I was in training for my new job downtown at Methodist Hospital. I didn't know any of those people and would likely never see them again. I don't know if that had something to do with why I let myself eat: a big bag of chocolate covered almonds (more chocolate than almond), a giant brownie (with chocolate chips), AND a big white chocolate macadamia nut cookie (that was Day 1). Or why on day 3 I went to the vending machine with the sole intention of buying a giant bag of Reese's Pieces and eating the whole bag. BUT...I guarantee that had I intended to blog those days, I would not have eaten any of it.
2) I must live (and eat) by a schedule. When I'm off of a routine, I just eat crappy. Maybe not 100% of the time...but enough to make a HUGE difference in my body. I may not do well on a very strict "diet" that doesn't allow for fluctuation, but I also don't do well with no structure at all. (Like mother like son I suppose!)
Now that I am on my third-shift rotation, done with training, and my classes are set, I know my schedule (crazy yet consistent) and I can plan my eating/fasting schedule accordingly.
3) This isn't something that I've only recently realized...I've known for a while, but has been reiterated to me during my time off from work. I am an addict. To many things. I have an addictive personality. I was a smoker for 16 years. I have a major junk food addiction. Maybe a food addiction in general. I am a workout-addict. When I clean, once I start, I can't stop. With my job, or learning choreography, I am a perfectionist; I want to know it inside and out. I'm all or nothing. That's why intermittent fasting works for me. When we have get-togethers, be it Thursday nights or family gatherings, I can't stop eating. When I drink, I more often than not drink WAY too much.
I am so tired of this cycle. I know my strengths and weaknesses. I am aware of how crazy I probably seem to those of you who hear me say the same things over and over, yet still repeat the cycle ever single week. I recognize, yet I don't know why. Why is it so hard to just NOT eat the things that I know I'm going to beat myself up about later? Why can't I stop at one or two of those little brownies with the frosting...instead of eating 6 of them? (Maybe 8.) I don't know why not.
But I do know that I can't give up and just say 'screw it'! Because there were a lot of things that I thought or said "I can't" do, or "I could never do that" and I DID.
"I can't give up pop." I did.
"I can't quit smoking." After several attempts, I did.
"I can't lose 70 pounds." I lost 80.
"I can't drive to Kentucky by myself". I can.
"I'm never going to be happy." I am.
"I can't teach BodyCombat/BodyAttack." I do.
So much of what we do and overcome is in our heads. I know this. I tell people this. I tell myself this. I found myself thinking about 'The Little Engine That Could' yesterday, and how true that story is. I do think I can...in fact I know I can.
It's 4:45am and now I'm just rambling. My point is, I am going to hold myself accountable, and I am going to keep posting. Even if no one is reading. But for those of you who are, I know there are people out there like me. That struggle. That can relate. And if nothing else, maybe it makes them feel better to know they aren't alone. Never give up.
"I can't get to 140 lbs." I will.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Doing pretty good this week!
Monday I did my first crossfit workout! I've wanted to for a long time, and finally did (thank you l Living Social!) Compared to the classes I teach, this was totally different. Both are amazing...just totally different. My shoulders and chest are still sore, four days later! I was very proud of myself at Bob Evans because I was good and only had a salad...and a healthy one at that! I really wanted the cinnamon till thing that was only 99-cents, but I stayed strong and didn't cave!
I was pretty lazy the rest of the afternoon, and napped in the chair while watching The Voice. Had my Greek yogurt w/berries as a snack. Later had my first quest bar...not the best-tasting protein bar ever, but to be all-natural, gluten-free, high fiber, no sugar, and high protein, I guess I get why they're so popular. They were on sale at GNC so I bought a few. Went to body jam ...finally!!! It's been so long. It was a blast as always, and I took two friends that had never done it, and of course they thought it was the greatest thing ever! (You're welcome!)
Made nachos with party leftovers, and omg they were amazing. Not the healthiest in the world but at least with all the cheese, but & sour cream, but they were loaded with protein and man did they hit the spot!
Tuesday I fasted until 2 pm because I waited for Steve so we could eat lunch together. If I'm able, I like stretching my fast out longer to reap more of the benefits. Had Subway, and for the first time ever, ordered a salad instead of a sandwich. Double chicken for the extra protein...although NOT as fan of subway chicken"product", whatever it is. At 4 I had my pre-workout snack: Ezekiel bread, toasted, w/natural PB & honey and a protein shake (EAS lean chocolate) . Taught Body Pump (which kicked my area! Gotta get more than one a week in!). For supper, Steve grilled chicken breasts and we made steamed potatoes & green beans in a rosemary butter sauce (it was a green giant microwave bag....I don't get that fancy with my cooking!). Made Pasta Roni for them, but I skipped those. Avoiding white carbs, and no cardio today either. Steve made his amazing Cinnamon Crunch Popcorn which I did eat to much of, but in total for the day I still did well.
Yesterday I went back to crossfit, so I ate pre-workout oatmeal w/spends Brown sugar, cinnamon, walnuts, and mixed berries and a protein shake (EAS vanilla) . Ok people, I'm in pretty decent shape, but this totally destroyed me! Hardest 20 minutes of my life. I LOVED IT!!! The gym owner even asked me to be part of their team for competitions....flattered and would love to, but I don't see how I could fit that into my life...trading training 5x/wk.... it! Didn't get to eat lunch till 2:30, but made the most wonderful meal of scrambled eggs with cheese, sour cream, black beans, and private sauce. Yum! And toast. As exhausted as I was, I still had to go to Combat tho, as it was Julia's last day before she moves to Idaho! :( by the end of combat I was TOTALLY wiped. Made pancakes& bacon for dinner (one of our faves). Then Steve and I went over to Lindsey & Julia's to hang out for a bit and say our goodbye's. Had a couple beers and pb rice krispie treats (yummy!). Passed OUT at 10:30...so tired!
Oh! I went downtown yesterday morning for my pre-employment health assessment and their scale said 143! What?!! Usually I'm much heavier on those doctor scales....knowing it was probably wrong, I didn't care. Still made me feel good!
Not sure if this picture I tried to load will turn out, but wanted to share my progress. From Oct to now I'm down over 10 lbs and 2% body fat, and am starting to see the changes in my body! Definitely helps keep me motivated to keep tabs on myself, and especially knowing I'll be sharing all my dirty details with you all!
Girls night tonight...wish me luck!!!!!
Sunday, May 5, 2013
Never thought I'd look forward to Mondays...
So after my last post, the next day was just ... rotten. My son struggles with emotional & behavioral disabilities, and we've had a lot of ups and downs for the last several months, and Wednesday was just a really bad day. Within 30 minutes of being at school, he had an episode, tore the classroom apart (again) and got suspended,. I'm gonna go into details about all that... There were some other issues I was also dealing with that day that just didn't help. It was just...a bad day. I pretty much just alternated between crying and sleeping all morning. Anyways, it's good I was fasting in the morning, because I was afraid if I started eating, I wouldn't stop.
It's been a long time since I've binged from stress, and I don't recommend it! A really stressful time in my life was about five years ago during a period of separation from my then-husband before my divorce, and I hate to say that it was good that I smoked back then, but I did, and had I not, and binge-ate instead, I'm pretty sure I may have gained back my 80 pounds that I lost after my pregnancy.
But I did not binge-eat or smoke anymore, thank God. Now I exercise. (A lot!)
Although I broke my fast at noon instead of doing a long fast, I was able to pull myself back together by afternoon and well, life goes on. Got a good workout in at home, and felt much better.
I did have wine and popcorn that night watching a movie with a couple of my girlfriends, so I got some extra calories in that I normally wouldn't on a Wednesday, but after the day I had, it was really nice to chill and unwind a bit. Oh... Silver Linings Playbook. Watch it. Good stuff.
Moving on...
Thursday of course was girls night again. More wine and food with the girls, as usual, but I think I didn't do as bad as I sometimes(ahem, usually) do.
Friday was actually better than or normal "out to eat" that we often do. I actually made meatloaf at home with deviled eggs, mashed potatoes and crescent rolls. I always feel like a real woman when I make a meatloaf! LOL
Oh Saturday... Ok, so I don't do well on special occasions, and know that even if I ever get the rest of my diet under control the other 99% of the time, this is a part of me that I don't see changing. (I never say never though. ) We had a big bash at my house last night to celebrate my birthday, my son's birthday, our friend Kristen's birthday, Cinco De Mayo ... whatever the reason, we party hardy. Get-togethers at my house, the big ones, end up in usually about 30-50 people, all of whom bring food and alcohol galore. Again, I did better food-wise than times past, but I still ate WAY more than I should have, and consumed mucho tequila! But I had a wonderful time and am blessed to have so many great friends to celebrate with. I am one very lucky gal! (Missed you Sue btw!) On the up side also, I did do a long fast so I didn't eat until that evening so in total I may have actually only eaten a slightly-higher-than-normal days worth of calories! :) And I surprised a lot of people when I still showed up at 10:30am this morning to teach BodyCombat and CXWorx, AND stayed for BodyFlow thank you very much! Now, I did take a two hour nap when I got home too, but still...
I did have a King Size Nutrageous candy bar today that Steve brought me home from the gas station (in my defense I asked for a normal size, but they didn't have it). Like I said, life goes on. I don't think I've ever eaten a Nutrageous I regretted. They are heavenly.
Also like I said.... I do look forward to Mondays!
(P.S. I'm trying CrossFit for the first time tomorrow! Wish me luck!)
It's been a long time since I've binged from stress, and I don't recommend it! A really stressful time in my life was about five years ago during a period of separation from my then-husband before my divorce, and I hate to say that it was good that I smoked back then, but I did, and had I not, and binge-ate instead, I'm pretty sure I may have gained back my 80 pounds that I lost after my pregnancy.
But I did not binge-eat or smoke anymore, thank God. Now I exercise. (A lot!)
Although I broke my fast at noon instead of doing a long fast, I was able to pull myself back together by afternoon and well, life goes on. Got a good workout in at home, and felt much better.
I did have wine and popcorn that night watching a movie with a couple of my girlfriends, so I got some extra calories in that I normally wouldn't on a Wednesday, but after the day I had, it was really nice to chill and unwind a bit. Oh... Silver Linings Playbook. Watch it. Good stuff.
Moving on...
Thursday of course was girls night again. More wine and food with the girls, as usual, but I think I didn't do as bad as I sometimes(ahem, usually) do.
Friday was actually better than or normal "out to eat" that we often do. I actually made meatloaf at home with deviled eggs, mashed potatoes and crescent rolls. I always feel like a real woman when I make a meatloaf! LOL
Oh Saturday... Ok, so I don't do well on special occasions, and know that even if I ever get the rest of my diet under control the other 99% of the time, this is a part of me that I don't see changing. (I never say never though. ) We had a big bash at my house last night to celebrate my birthday, my son's birthday, our friend Kristen's birthday, Cinco De Mayo ... whatever the reason, we party hardy. Get-togethers at my house, the big ones, end up in usually about 30-50 people, all of whom bring food and alcohol galore. Again, I did better food-wise than times past, but I still ate WAY more than I should have, and consumed mucho tequila! But I had a wonderful time and am blessed to have so many great friends to celebrate with. I am one very lucky gal! (Missed you Sue btw!) On the up side also, I did do a long fast so I didn't eat until that evening so in total I may have actually only eaten a slightly-higher-than-normal days worth of calories! :) And I surprised a lot of people when I still showed up at 10:30am this morning to teach BodyCombat and CXWorx, AND stayed for BodyFlow thank you very much! Now, I did take a two hour nap when I got home too, but still...
I did have a King Size Nutrageous candy bar today that Steve brought me home from the gas station (in my defense I asked for a normal size, but they didn't have it). Like I said, life goes on. I don't think I've ever eaten a Nutrageous I regretted. They are heavenly.
Also like I said.... I do look forward to Mondays!
(P.S. I'm trying CrossFit for the first time tomorrow! Wish me luck!)
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