So after my last post, the next day was just ... rotten. My son struggles with emotional & behavioral disabilities, and we've had a lot of ups and downs for the last several months, and Wednesday was just a really bad day. Within 30 minutes of being at school, he had an episode, tore the classroom apart (again) and got suspended,. I'm gonna go into details about all that... There were some other issues I was also dealing with that day that just didn't help. It was just...a bad day. I pretty much just alternated between crying and sleeping all morning. Anyways, it's good I was fasting in the morning, because I was afraid if I started eating, I wouldn't stop.
It's been a long time since I've binged from stress, and I don't recommend it! A really stressful time in my life was about five years ago during a period of separation from my then-husband before my divorce, and I hate to say that it was good that I smoked back then, but I did, and had I not, and binge-ate instead, I'm pretty sure I may have gained back my 80 pounds that I lost after my pregnancy.
But I did not binge-eat or smoke anymore, thank God. Now I exercise. (A lot!)
Although I broke my fast at noon instead of doing a long fast, I was able to pull myself back together by afternoon and well, life goes on. Got a good workout in at home, and felt much better.
I did have wine and popcorn that night watching a movie with a couple of my girlfriends, so I got some extra calories in that I normally wouldn't on a Wednesday, but after the day I had, it was really nice to chill and unwind a bit. Oh... Silver Linings Playbook. Watch it. Good stuff.
Moving on...
Thursday of course was girls night again. More wine and food with the girls, as usual, but I think I didn't do as bad as I sometimes(ahem, usually) do.
Friday was actually better than or normal "out to eat" that we often do. I actually made meatloaf at home with deviled eggs, mashed potatoes and crescent rolls. I always feel like a real woman when I make a meatloaf! LOL
Oh Saturday... Ok, so I don't do well on special occasions, and know that even if I ever get the rest of my diet under control the other 99% of the time, this is a part of me that I don't see changing. (I never say never though. ) We had a big bash at my house last night to celebrate my birthday, my son's birthday, our friend Kristen's birthday, Cinco De Mayo ... whatever the reason, we party hardy. Get-togethers at my house, the big ones, end up in usually about 30-50 people, all of whom bring food and alcohol galore. Again, I did better food-wise than times past, but I still ate WAY more than I should have, and consumed mucho tequila! But I had a wonderful time and am blessed to have so many great friends to celebrate with. I am one very lucky gal! (Missed you Sue btw!) On the up side also, I did do a long fast so I didn't eat until that evening so in total I may have actually only eaten a slightly-higher-than-normal days worth of calories! :) And I surprised a lot of people when I still showed up at 10:30am this morning to teach BodyCombat and CXWorx, AND stayed for BodyFlow thank you very much! Now, I did take a two hour nap when I got home too, but still...
I did have a King Size Nutrageous candy bar today that Steve brought me home from the gas station (in my defense I asked for a normal size, but they didn't have it). Like I said, life goes on. I don't think I've ever eaten a Nutrageous I regretted. They are heavenly.
Also like I said.... I do look forward to Mondays!
(P.S. I'm trying CrossFit for the first time tomorrow! Wish me luck!)
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